ok i know this is a chi blog n i think i m not going to be penalised for typing eng. haha..cos i m jus too lazy yo type in chi. anyway jus updates on my e other blog..funny eh..updating 2 blogs. haha..but don worry i still got things to type. haha.
Firstly, i m learning to forgive. Not that i don forgive pple. but learning to forgive someone in particular. haha. It is quite hard actually cos the hatred and bad memories jus surfaced out when i see him. When he comes to my hse i nv greet him. my mum has lecture me n my sis on several occasion for not greeting him. I did feel bad at first but when i thought of wat he did e guilt is gone.
This morning this particular person came to my house. He is actually in a bad shape. Really. I'm not sure abt his income but i know he has a job. haha. he hurt his arm last year. and since after that his arm has been giving him problems. His muscle in that hand isn't working well. He lives in my grandma house but without my grandma. cos she has passed away.
Anyway he came to my house to ask my mum to help him cook. My mum guess his hand is giving a hard time. At first when i saw him i was disappointed. haha i also donnoe y. but after that i smile at him. First time after abt 2 to 3 years liao n i greeted him too. The immediate feeling after i felt disappointed is that today is new year eve i shld try to accept him and forgive him. Even my mum has forgiven him y can't i? so after my mum helped him cook the food (those are offerings) i helped him brought it to his house. When i step into the house it reminds me of my grandma. haha. miss her alot. then i brought the food into the kitchen. And i scan the house for a few more moments. After all my grandma use to live there. haha. Things in that hse is really diff. Looks very old and dirty and one of the cupboard door has came off. I then went to help him set up the table. everything in the house have changed. i think i actually pity him. cos at e kitchen i saw ants crawling ard e sink, bowl, cups.
abit sad to see him living in such a condition. all i can do is to forgive him and make him feel better for wat he have done. even though he nv say anything after tt incident i know he felt very bad. Most of my relatives have forgive him n y shldn't i? haha. but it is hard n i will try my best. It also remind me of a phrase i heard from the Ai de Zhang men ren. It is something like: when u made a mistake, friends forsake u, but family will stood by your side hoping u change for the better. So being part of e family i shld try my best. haha..ok tt is all folks..bb
