I think a**y is making me stupid. Abt a week ago my fren asked me a simple math question n i couldn't give a logical ans to him. Somehow while i was reading the question and trying to come up with a logical reasoning my brain starting to object very violently. I couldn't think properly at all. So much for telling us to use our brains...i think it is degrading our brains. Maybe we are trained to have muscles n no brains. AHHA. Whatever i'm ranting rubbish.

Just had this sudden urge to blog. To come and see this empty space where it will be filled by words and letters in no time. But i do not know what to write or say. Jus had this sudden feeling of loneliness loomed over me. Lonely n bored. Or was it the fact tt i cannot differentiate loneliness and boredom? ok..i'm starting to rumble off again.



anyway some randomness.


I WANT A NEW BAG!


I WANT A NEW SET OF HAIR. haha. yes i still don like my hair now. or maybe it is me.


I DON WAN TO BE PLAGUE BY FLU, SORE THROAT AND COUGH!


I WANT TO FLY AWAY TO SOMEHWERE NICE!


I WANT TO SLEEP ALL I WANT AND DO NOTHING.



There seems to be too much i wan. i'm too greedy. i hate politics and having the feeling that i need to wayang to be gd. SHIT this stuff. **** is a fucked up place.

All of a sudden i jus feel so lonely, so angry and so tired. Tired of hearing them cry, tired of seeing my parents getting so worked up, tired of going home and yet it doesn't feels like homw at all. Tired of so many things. Like i've told someone, sometimes i wld rather stay in camp then to go home. At least in camp there is more peace then at home. at least in camp i have frens whom i can talk to. At least in camp, maybe i feel abit happier.



Now all of a sudden i feel that i can talk to no one. Because no one wans to listen to me whine abt e same old stuff everytime. Complain abt every single thing that i don't like and i also feel that i can't jus tok to anyone. Also, i feel that maybe all these are jus childish feelings of myself. Maybe i'm not mature enough, so if i tell anyone they wld jus think that i'm jus childish.



So since i can't talk to anyone, i might as well tell it to my blog. For in case, when i can't hold e silence any longer i do not know what i'll do or say. Maybe i'll just turn crazy or maybe i'll jus commit suicide. See, foolish thoughts.



I'm just sick n tired.

Sometimes army can be a very scary place. A slip of tongue can costs u ur whole future. And obviously sometimes u shld just shut ur mouth.



That is what i've learned today. My tongue just slipped. I was lucky enough not to get my ass burnt. Feeling rather lousy and depressed. Becos pple will definitely think diff of me now and it might be very negatively. N i hate it.



ARRGHHH..n i feel abit awkward as well. Feel abit hard facing my boss. ARRRGH!! think it will take some time to get rid off this feeling. hai..hope no ill feeling will be done. Well, there are worst cases than mine. ok, even though saying that does not cheer me up any bit.



BOOO!!!! hope everything will be better soon!!!



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