YES PPLE! I"M BACK!! n i tot i would abondon this blog for good.haha. Because i don not have to mood to blog now. But then for some unknown reason n unknown force i came here in e end.




I'm very drowsy noe because i took my medicine a few hours ago. Cough syrup tt is. Been sick in tekong. Tt was e 2nd week i guess. My company (Leopard!) suddenly seemed to have an outburst of pple getting flu, cough n sore throat. I was unlucky enough to be one of them.



E 18 days of confinement/adjustment period is relatively ok. Sgts are still very nice even though we got fuck by Sgt Jihad already. But i guess tt was only small case. Food is relatively ok. PPle are generally nice as well. Even though there are some buggers ard. Overall i think my section is e best. MUWHAHAHHAHAA.



Anyway was being appointed as e armskote 2ndIC. e last post i wld ever wanna get. Worse then being e armskote IC. tsk. But i always enjoy sseing pple sending arms back. haha. cos they will sign from e book n my job is officially gone! hahah. but well had to stick to this bloody appointment for another 6 weeks. Hope no one else get fuck anymore. Including me.



The next book in will be 2nd of May. Will be going to SDC first before heading back to the super sunny small island. Whjile i was there initially i was thinking if there was a tsunami, Tekong will definitely sink. haha. But lets all pray to all e god tt such thing will nv happen.



Having field camp when i booking in after 2 days. Hope everything will be alright n smooth. Definitely not looking forward for it. E only thing tt excite me is e stars tt i'll get to see at night. Other than tt, nothing else does.



Ok tt's all folks for now. Yours truly needs rest. hahaha.

OK! tml is e day where i get my head shaved n get confined for 2 weeks n learn lots n lots of new things!



Another chapter of my life begins tml. A new beginning, a new story. Let's hope it will be exciting for e rest of e story! Lots of surprise, good surpise. haha. Also this blog will then be ignored n left to collect dust until yours truly comes back home n clean it.



Till then, take care everyone! esp to those who have been reading my blog! n my family, frens blah blah blah. haha.



Ciao!


Adios!


Bye!

Zai(4) Jian(4)!



Cheers!

4 more days! had a so called farewell dinner on wed at ah eu's hse. then today met up with kat n ng for prata session. so fast! 4 more days. e waiting is killing me. excited n nervous. Wondering how e pple will be like in there. Frenly, nice, fun-going, crazy, funny? or bossy, irritating, selfish, fierce n scary kind. hahaha. anyway whatever lar.

HAHA. this is so unexpected of me. Blogging at such an hr. 2.10A.M! still waiting for my mp3 to be charged. rather irritated. haha. it has been 2hrs!!!! n it has not finish charging.



Finally went to e temple n pray!!!! then went to buy 4D. haha. bought 5678. e no. tt was in e ang bao. SO SUAY LOR!!! NV WIN!!!!! got 2 pairs of no. all jus lack of 1 no. If only i got those 2 no. i can smell e $$$$$. hahahaa.



14 more days to NS


5 more to Ah eu's birthday


22 more days to brt's birthday

Yeah finally managed to get my ass out today! haha. thx to sylvester, who ask me out to go for jogging. Turns out we went to the gym instead. haha. ran e treadmill for 20 mins n completed abt 3.1+km. then proceed to use e machines. Saw one of my junior there. yeah! at least i exercised today! i'm so happy!

Been having weird dreams lately. Even U appeared in my dream. Scary. Met so many old friends in my dream. haha. somewhat like a mini reunion in my dream.



yeah! my parents are finally coming back today!! Well no more late-night cookings. haha. Boo to that. BUT!! BUT!! at least there is mum's cooking everyday. Cos i know my cooking can nv be on par with her right now. But maybe in 10 years time i will win her! haha. crappy. My sis even complained abt e egg i cook. Says it got e smell but not e taste. Of course i know. i'm an amatuer. hahahaha. not like my mum n dad. They're e pro. haha.



I'm panicking again becos i haven been training hard for the past few weeks. Actualy i haven been training at all. except for e sit-ups. HAHAHA. always woke up late. someone pls drag me out of my cosy litte bed n tie me to the treadmill or kidnapped me to the stadium. But i know i'll run tml! or at least i would. haha.



N i wan to go to sentosa AGAIN! yes. AGAIN! hahah. jus went recently with my classmates. Fun. waiting for pics! haha. n SEPHINE IF U ARE READING THIS, PLS UPLOAD E PICS ASAP!! hahaha. THX!



Ok! tt all's!



8 days to eunice's birthday!


16 days to NS!


24 days to Ber's birthday!

I had a fun day yest! Went to sentosa with my classmates. ahha. Even though there were only 5 of us. Bought frisbee n play on shore n in e sea. Had a fun time yest. ahha. We even dig a super big trench. n it is abt half a thigh deep. haha. me n yat yan we buried in it. In e end shin jia was also buried.ahah.



After tt went to harbourfront to look for ah yo, my assistant chef when i use to work at sakae. She told me lots of things. Some were very sad. I wonder y e working world is such a cruel place. How can they bully 2 old ladies! What is wrong with these pple!!!!! they shld be chopped off!!! Cursed them! Hope when these evil pple work, they fall n slip in e kitchen, knock their head on e floor n e knife fell from e counter n stab them. Evil pple!!!

haha! i'm so-called finally cooking my first full course meal!!! 3 cheers for e wonderful sijie! YES! e next iron chef in e family. HAHA.



parents are still away at thai n still visiting more n more temples. i think my mum is super tired. everytime i call her, she say she is in e bus sleeping. HAHA.



let's hope e meal will taste gd. After all this is my first time. haha. yeah..lost my virginity on cooking my first full course meal jus like tt. haha. Like i've said i'm going to be e next iron chef in my family!! but there is still a super long way to go.



i think i can take over my mum when she comes back. I'M THE NEW MUM FOR MY FAMILY!! haha. i cook, do laundry, pray, prepare for e prayers, go market, sweep floor, mop floor. HAHAHA. i think i siao liao. lalla. WOOH!!



ok..tt's all back to cooking!!!

I'm bored n i'm feeling very bottled up. Lots of emotions or feelings mixing n running ard in me. I'm confused n i'm stressed ( i donnoe y either ). I'm also lost. What to do, what to choose n what will happen?



It is going to be a terrible long 9 days. i miss my parents. BOO!

Headache!

It is such a pain in e ass to plan a gathering when noone bothers to reply. Now i don't even know how many pple are going. I feel like i'm dealing with ghost. I've no idea where to settle a place for dinner! whatever choices given, negative feedbacks are always given. Now u have to consider the budget, e location, e smell, e size of e shop n stuff. ANNOYING! it is easier to plan an event when u are at least given a budget n est no. of pple arriving.



Seriously troublesome. BOOOOO!!!!!!

Tiltles that do not match

I've jus realised for some of e post i've made e title doesn't really match the entry. Y? becos i always digressed from my original topic if not i actually deleted what i wanted to say originally if not it wld be e case where i forgot what i wanted to say initially. tada! tt is y some titles doesn't match e post. haha.

the run-away me

My parents are going to thailand AGAIN! i think this is e 3rd time they're going again? haha. n this is e longest period they will be away from home! BOOS! n YEAHS!!! haha.



But of course their safety shall comes first even b4 my enjoyment of a short total freedom period.



I'll pray to tao peh gong everyday. During morning and at night!



For now..it is BOO to house chores! n YEAH!! to more late night pratas!!!

A HUGE RELIEF!!!! But still it can't be compared wih e feeling 2 years back. This time i was rather numb. Now i'm gonna attack every course i can enter! i'm hopeful abt e outcome!

e final decision!

OK! Manage to get ah heng to call leena ant e outlet i wan to get transferred too. Apparently it didn't go too well. I didn't get posted to northpoint. BOOO! ok tt aside ah heng gave me a shock when he told me my pay will be increase to $7 if i go to tiong bahru. $7/hr!!!! can u imagine!! compare to my current $5.50 which seems sooooooooooooooooooooooooo little. haha. Well it seems like something was wrong with his ears. Cos he called back n say he made a mistake.



So after hearing out what he have told me AGAIN. i've decided to resign. NO MORE WORK FOR ME! 1 whole month of unemployment = no source of income = no $$ = no play! BOO! Well my dad say no point in working anymore if i'm still going to toa payoh. haha. i did a mental calculation for my transport fees n it really isn't worth it. haha. BOO TO SAKAE SUSHI! Let's pray tt all e aunties won get bullied by aunties from another outlet! if not they'll get it from me! hahha.



btw results releasing this fri. haha. still a little excited n nervous. well wish everyone all e best!! MAY WE ALL GET GD RESULTS!!!! PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY!

Curse blogger for not being able to published my last entry! BOO to blogger!








Well, finally saw e legendary leena tt everyone seemed to fear n panick at e sight of her and even when they hear her name. haha. She seems very motherly n nice. N i got transferred all e way to tao payoh after sembawang is closed. Y didn't i have e courage to tell her i wan NP!! ARRGH!! BOO TO ME! blimey. hope i can get ah heng to tell her tml. phsstt..let's pray!

too tired, to lazy, too much?

I think i'm not going to demand for extra pay afterall. E preparations are too much and i'm jus too tired n too lazy to chase for it anymore. Also it is hard to find free legal advice even though i know where to get tt service. But it will take a long time b4 i get anything done. So no point.



Work was peaceful today except when unknown pple like e constructors n e frog prince's dad, Uncle Foo, appeared. It made everyone nervous, stressful n uptight. haha. But i wasn't bothered. So what if i pissed him off, fire me lor. haha. Even loud-hailer ah heng had to shut up.



Finally i went to make e VIP card. But well it isn't tt useful anyway. Jus wanna have e feeling of owning it. HAHAH. It is rather useless anyway. discount = no discount. hahha. crappy craps. Making no sense at all.



My family is going to lao yusheng tml again!! I WANNA LAO!!! but i can't! tsk. due to work. so irritating. wonder y tml so many delivery orders. Someone shld bomb e call centre. hahaha. hopefully all in morning so i can clear them all n leave afternoon free! Let's pray tt no customers tml! all stay at home n celebrate everyone's birthday. OH! btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!!!

Money-minded

I was pondering awhile ago if i'm making a moutain out of a molehole (i think there is such phrase. haha. i now my english is not superb). Or simply saying i'm kaing abig fuss out of something.



For the past few days i was checking out on e labour law regarding double pay on a public holiday because i was told by my employer that on tues we will not be paid double. Instead we are being paid at the normal rate. So i went home n told my faimly n they said it is impossible so i went to check on e labour law.



So today i went back to op hoping tt mr nair could enlightened me on certain law matters but well he was busy so me n eunice went to look for mrs sasi instead. Well she told me i shld be getting my double pay. She even told me to look for free legal advice which is available at community centres.



When i reached home my sis told me i was making a big fuss out of everything. Then it dawned on me, am i really making a big fuss? well i'm super money-minded n i'm sure everyone else is. N i told my sis if it was only for a few hrs i don't mind. But i worked for 11hrs jus on tues so y can't i fight for what i deserved?



After tt i began to ponder deeper. Maybe bosses get richer n richer because they don pay what their employee deserves. Many aunties n waiter n waitress doesn't seem to care and take e employer's word for real when he claim tt there is no double on tues. Well, maybe i one super money-minded employee tt don believe his word.



Now i'm afraid i'll fall halfway while fighting for what i deserved. I'm afarid things get even more messier. Things are getting pretty messy at work now already, with all e hidden fights still going on n e struggles between co-workers. E worse is when u are inevitably involved.



I hate going to work now. I'm looking forward for this coming wednesday.



Someone pls tie me up so i can't go to work. I hate what is waiting for me tml.

Went back to op today! haha. so long since i've stepped back into op. e feeling was great! Met some teachers, but many were busy. Saw alot of new faces ard both teachers n students.



Chat with several teachers n all say e students are getting worse. More difficult to handle. Some say it has become a societal problem n not only within op but it is a common prob tt happens ard. I wonder if it is really tt. Do pple in raffles institution behave e same way too? haha.



Got my querries ansed my mrs sasi. She even taught me how to challenge them. haha. i'm quite ready but still need to tie up some loose ends n get ready my ammo b4 i start firing off. haha.



Even had lunch with ms chang. haha. she treated me! make me feel so paiseh n so coincidentally i saw april! my pri sch fren who happens to work in e cafe. haha. but nv chat much with her. also saw another pri sch fren but i guess he didn't recognise or remember me. haha.



got to report an extra hr earlier tml. ah heng say he got something to tell me. wonder what izzit. i got bad feeling, but hope it won come true.



ok tt's all for today's update!

i'm going to demand for the things i deserved!




haha. n i'm going prepared.




WATCH OUT!

It's finally CNY! but somehow e mood is not there. Every year it seems so routine and it has become less exciting and energetic. I remember when i was young i love CNY. well i do love CNY but somehow e feeling is diff. Sometimes it jus doesn't feel like CNY. weird. does it have to do with our mentality as we grow older? thinking tt CNY is jus e same old thing. i donnoe. Well anyway wishing everyone a happy PIGGY year! but may piglet(winnie e pooh) tt disgusting creature fall into a bottomless pit n nv climb up again. other piglets of other kind(not from winnie e pooh) will rise n stay cute n pinky n healthy!

I still feel guilty for bringing him in. Now he got injured i felt even worse. I even feel guilty for his injuries. BOO!

Work is getting more and more monotonous. It is always wipe e rice tray, make standby, prepare egg mixture, make chawamushi, wipe tables, cut papers, wait for order, prepare sushi for belts n blah blah.



Well at least i'm learning how to make better handrolls. Maybe i'm abit too ambitous but i wanna learn how to make maki n my next move will be C&C! i wanna go C&C n fry all e orders!! e tempura, gyoza, yasai n blah blah. learn how to make bento set n stuf. well by then i'll be e chef. HAHA. i know it is impossible, but still..i wanna fry e food! at least let me fry them! haha.

*yawns* i'm seriously lacking of sleep. haha. always can't wake up for work. clogged up to 51 hrs of work this week. e pain on my sole is killing me. e shoes i'm wearing is lousy. i wanna wear back my sport shoes. work is going to be hell next week. esp when aunty xiu ju is not ard n yoyo will be at e other kitchen. ah mui aunty will be quiet. hahah. even though she is funny at times. let's hope yoyo come to my kitchen n chat with us. haha. sat is my off day! my sis birthday! haha. can relax!! WOOT!

I've done something terrible and i feel so guilty. I think e guilt is going to stay there for sme time. Let's hope things will turn out fine soon.




Well theres work tml! n i look forward to it! Tt is to go chat with the aunties. haha. Hope there won't be clashes with e chef tml. I might jus take e knife n stab him. haha.

ANNOUNCEMENT: KITCHEN POLITICS! BEWARE OF EVIL CHEF AND FLYING KNIFES!




There is a group of angry kitchen assistants and service crew that is very unhappy with e uncivilised and bossy chef. However, sad to say, he still has a supporter.




Supporter:



Ah-man aunty




Protestors:



Yoyo



Xiu Ju aunty



Sijie



Service crew




We shall all unite together and plot against the scheming chef. He who does nothing but boss around and attack innocent kitchen assistants, waiter and waitress, dishwasher. We must stand up for ourselves!




Well, looking at another perspective, since we are closing soon we shall let him enjoy being e king for a while before he got transfered and get torture by pple from other outlets. haha.




Anyway aunty pualine is leaving! sad. she is a nice and kind lady. Hope there might be a miracle n she might not need to leave! haha.




Tml work again! Hope i don even see e stupid chef.

Work is definitely getting better! e barrier or gap tt was once there has start to narrow down or gradually closed. well this is definitely a gd sign. haha. had quite a fun time at work todsay. laughed alot. FINALLY! i'm not deprived of laughter! haha.

I'm here to blog again! haha. today is another off day for me. haha. so sian. no work = no $$.




anyway yest went out in e afternoon to watch movie. managed to catch curse of the golden flowers! haha. e movie is nice.




then went home catch a nap then went out again to have a farewell dinner for yat yan n jansen. haha. cos they going for NS tml. went to dinner at marche at suntec. was quite fun. haha.




after tt came home n watch tv till 3 plus. haha. ok got work tml. hope tml will be a better day!

YEAH! today is day off! happy n sad. happy because i can relax. haha.went jogging with frens then later go play pool. sad because no work no $$.




Anyway jus like my current job i have a love/hate relationship for it. I love being in e kitchen making sushi. N i love e aunties there! haha. they are very sweet most of e time. What i hate abt is e environment. i don feel welcome n i find it hard to fit in. this is so sad!




well, seems like e main prob is communication. hope this will be better after this month. Hopefully!

OK after so long, i'm finally here to blog! haha. N this is the first time i'm blogging for the new year! haha. Many things happened last year n now e year had ended n so shall all e unhappy stuff. E happy and fun times shall be locked in my memories n also be represented by the pictures taken.




FInally! i have also found a job! it is not an office job, but who cares. Wanted to look for one, but well, since i can't find any i looked for other jobs. haha. well i like this job too! cos i'll be working in e kitchen making sushi! YES! i'm working at sakae sushi, e sembawang outlet at the Sembawang shopping centre! haha. not sun plaza. n today will be e first day i worked! yipee! haha. well wish me gd luck for first day of work! haha.

Sometimes i jus envy or maybe get a little jealous at pple who are of my age to be allowed so much fun and they can go home in e wee hours n they won get scolded. Sometimes it does sounds fun. N i really wanna experience it myself. It's unfair tt i can't try to have such fun cos of the obligations and responsibilities i have to fulfill or to follow. They aren't mine in the first place. Just because of someone's selfishness i feel breathless, trapped and stuck. Sometimes i jus wan to break free n run away. Even if i get to enjoy for jus 1 day, i won mind. i really won't.

The logic in my brain is hard to comprehend. Even i don understand y i think in a certain way at times. Esp now. I know i dislike tt person, but i always want to know what is going on with her in her life n so i went to read her blog. Only to realised i wld flared up and get sooooo mad n upset at how she comment on certain things. It's weird isn't it? Or is this call: Updating yourself ant ur enemy? hahaha. Or maybe i jus wan to see if she suffers? haha. Maybe e more she suffer e happier i m? Ok then tt makes me a super saddist. haha. n maybe a potential criminal.

Internet is down from yest onwards. tried so many times then finally get to blogger. birthday was ok. it was nice. haha. but y always b4 my birthday got some disasters happening recently. 2 years back was tsunami. now is taiwan earthquake. tsk tsk. y like tt. haha. n i'm grounded! cos dad say i keep going out. haha. then i shall be a nice boy until new year! haha. n hopefully i get e job at woodlands! hope i get e call tml! ahha.

Woke up this morning n started to feel aches throughout my leg. n then i remembered tt i went training with shin jia n roy. haha. it was a funny, fun training. we walked, ran, jog ard e track e whole morn. haha. n my stamina sux! shld run more in future! must start to prepare n train more.




YEAH! today is x'mas eve!!! tml is x'mas!!! got x'mas meal!!! hahaha. let's hope there is turkey. YUMMY! n e day after x'mas is my bdae celebration! yeah go simei n eat!!! WOOT!! all e gd food here i come!!!! yummy!




let's hope all those fats i gain (hopefully) do not go to my tummy! haha.

I think i know the ans to certain questions i have in my mind. Maybe it is retribution.




Dad n sis got their phones today. Exactly e same phone. haha. n if only starhub would gave me e stdent plan! phhsssst. The salesguy say e HQ will reject cos i'm only a few days away from being 18. Y like tt!! i need tt 1000 sms! or i shld say additional 500 sms. haha. While e fat green pipe companies to do so, the smart n fast wrestling guy gave their customers such privelege with even more benefits! So maybe the fat green pipe might not be tt fat afterall. haha.




Dad is intending to get a 21 inch tv!! but well, it will be his. Maybe!..Maybe! When i got enough $$ i shall get a tv into my room as well! ahha. n comes along e beautiful Xbox. BUT! there are still monsters lurking in my hse, which might endanger the survival of my XBox. hmm. well...........maybe i shld get smth else? haha.




Saw the eye monster today. She got her hair cut! couldn't recognise her at first but when i saw those eyes! i felt shiver down my curvy spine. haha. ok shan't be mean. see retribution again.

ok. something jus popped right thro my mind! u guys can give me a cap as a gift too! haha. it will serve great purpose later on in my life. haha.




shall do a quick recap of what happened for e past 5 days.




Monday: Had an early celebration of my bdae!! went to seoul garden eat with e greatest frens on earth. haha.




Tuesday: Job hunting with seph at vivo. none wanna hire me cos i can only commit for a short period. haha. then celebrated jiawei's bdae at swensen.




Wed: Stayed at home n did my resume. send it to various companies. actually is those agency.




Thurs: stayed at home. watch tv use e com. send a few resume.




Fri: pray, eat, send resume.




Am i such a lousy worker? or i have a lousy worker's face? or i'm down with bad luck? y noone wans to hire me.........haha.

It has been some time ever since i've blogged. haha. was busy with a game. hehe. n job huntings. so now i'm taking a mini break from e games n job huntings. So far, sad to say no one wans to hire me. haha. cos i'm able to commit for a short period n they looking for abt 6 months n longer. so i was shortlisted. Kind of having mix feeling. a bit disappointed, sad yet somehow a bit relieved and happy. hahhaha. don worry i won give up n i will keep hunting for jobs! So seph!! don feel guilty ok!! jus treat me when u got ur pay! MUWHAHAHAHA. i'm evil.




Jobs n games aside, next wed is my birthday! pple who happen to see my blog pls kindly note tt my birthday is 27/12! SO I WANT MY GIFTS! hahaha. i'm thick-skin. Jus jk lar. i very nice one. haha. no gitfs also can, give me money lor. MWUAHHAHA. ok, jk only. haha.




Anyway, jus in case some kind, cute n lovely pple out there still wanna get me gifts (i don mind accepting), i shall write my list out! haha. u all still got 6 days to shop! haha.



1) more shirt! i wan one nike black dry-fit. size s/m



2) still more shirt! hahahah.



3) movie treats! treat me to a movie!



4) pants! cargo or 3/4 pants! waist size: 28!



5) money! give me ang bao also can! MUWHAHA. min $1. haha.



6) food treat! treat me to a sumptous meal! (i don mind choc fondue!)less than $20 can liao.



7) get me a job! if ur work place happen to need pple. MWUAHHA.



8) chocs! haha. i don mind getting chocs for birthday. haha.



9) an instrument tt measures ur heart rate when u jog. i can't remember wat is e name of tt small machine



10) deuter bag! those big big one! for backpacks! MWUHAHA. preferred colour: blue.




ok tt is all. haha. i very nice one. n i wish for a miracle to happen. ple let it happen. even though i know e chance of tt miracle happening is very slim. but anyway i still have my hopes for it! haha. lalala. i shall await for the miracle!

Everyone changes.




Sometimes it is impossible for anyone not to change. It seems tt in life, change is inevitable. To me, there are 3 main reasons why people change.




Firstly, influence by peers. When u are interacting with your friends everyday, some of their characters maybe actually be found in u. N some of your characters can also be found in them.




Secondly, due to the environment or surrounding. You change to fit in to the environment. To blend in with everyone.




Thirdly, to adapt to environment. You change cos u need to adapt in an unfamiliar environment.




So, pple change and there maybe more than these 3 reasons. So when someone change i think it takes alot of courage for another person to accept that change. If changing n be more positive in life, i think it is a good change and your fren instead of exclaiming and get upset over the change shld be happy for u.




Nevermind not accepting the change, to me, the worse a fren can go iis not to even allow u to change. If for the worse, maybe u shld try n stop e change for occuring. But if for the better, why not?




By doing tt you are very selfish. Not only being selfish u hinder the development of one. You trap the poor soul into the cage, the cage where shld have been opened.




So open your arms widely to changes you fren are having. Have an open-mind.

I'm back from chalet! haha. It jus ended yest! The chalet was fun. haha. but it could have been better if only it hadn't rain on e 2nd day!! we could have gone for night cycing!! haha. n we manage to clear all e wings!! 8kg of them!! lalalala. Faizal n xueying came to the chalet as well! haha. e more e merrier!




Met huifang, yifang, leeyen n peishi on e 2nd day! haha. they also booked e same dates as us. There were 2 more innovians as well. haha. but i could not remember their name now. HAHAHA. ok i'm bad. lalala.




lazy to update so much. haha. YEAH!! badminton tml!!! WOOT!!! n off to city hall after tt to collect e free gift!! YEAH!!!




oh, i think we shld have another gathering soon. haha. my class is fun! or maybe i shld say it is fun hanging ard with my class! haha.

It rained!!! haha. hope after today there will be tonnes n tonnes of sunshine for e next 3 days!! lala. SHINE SHINE SHINE!!!




yeah x'mas is coming n so is my birthday!!! LALALALALA. pple start getting my gifts ready!! i'll borrow santa's reindeer and sleigh but instead of giving gifts i'm coming to collect gifts!! MWUAHHAHA. ok lame. alala.




n today is such a random post! WOOT! e caged animal will be released!!! to enjoy a few days of freedom n locked up back into e cage. haha.




oh, when i grow old i hope to find an hdb apartment away from e centrals n stuff. Somewhere quiet n cosy. haha. but accessible enuf. lalalalalalala. e stars are singin!

YEAH!!!!! chalet is this coming mon!!!!!!!!!!!! so looking forward for it. haha. cos it is fun, fun and more fun!!! haha. n tonnes of fooooooooooooooddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!! wwwwwoooooooooooootttttttttt!!! haha.

me n aunties with feathers.



aunties, xiu yun n me! (again w/o specs..hmm..not nice)



look at me ears! they grow feathers! i can fly!



ok me! (someone say i handsome. MWUHAHAH)



my beloved aunties n me! (i tried taking photos w/o my specs, result = no gd)



arwinder, puden n me



aunties, me n hf. ( not a nice pic but heck)




OK due to blogger's own techinal problem (not mine), i am unable to upload other pics. I've tried serveral time but it was useless. So i shall post other pics at other time then! enjoy these few pics!

i'm angry by what happened earlier on. If u read e previous post b4 i delete it u shld sense my anger. But well since i've delete it i shall not harp on it. haha. shall post pics of my prom real soon! once i got all e photos from e various cameras. haha. lalalal. prom pics looks nice! WE'RE BETTER THAN LARD! HAHAHAHAHA. Well, she still can't amazed us. Too bad couldn't get to see e beehive head and e weird sense of dressing. Must be e help of her juniors. Gd for her at least she didn't get embarrassed. But still, she looks ugly. HAHA. okok. wait for my pics real soon!! lalalala.

MUWHAHAHAA. i think i tag at e wrong person's blog. so malu. haha. i'm so stupid. yeah. dumb. muwhahha.

lalala. jus bought my prom stuff today. so sad spent money again. I'm sooooo broke! lalalalala. i'm bored. yeah faezah is coming back. MUWHAHA. then can go interview soon! WOOT! lalala.

Someone pls saved me!!! NO! save us! from e clutches of e pig trotters.




It is starting to irritate e hell out of me when things are getting out of control. This is not only abt u. It concern others as well. I'm sicked of being asked what happened. So what is ur ugly motive? It is getting on my bloody nerves. Don make me go up to u and do something nasty to u. Or y don u jus announced it to e whole world so everyone can jus pity u.




I'm being tired of always taking e bad guy role. I think it is high time we switched roles, y don't u be e baddie and we'll be e goodies. YES! we shall jus have some exchange of roles u crazy-perverted-soaked-in-self-pity lump of lard/bitch/pig/hideous monster or watever undescribable creature. Just because of YOU! one bloody arsehole tt doesn't we need to suffer from all this shit. You are not e only victim. SO STOP SEEING YOURSELF AS E FREAKING LOSER VICTIM!




wait till e world sees ur hideous and horrifying mask, then they will understand why we choose to do what we have done. Don't see urself so holy and saint. U sinned! u bloody bitch! get tt into ur thick skull! imbecile! Maybe you will only why u are such a big loser when u've really lost everything, even your enemies.




I'll wait for tt day to arrive and b4 it does, old stories don't win sympathy. They just shows how old you really are and how stupid u are tt u are always stuck back in time. Don pretend to move on when u aren't. Such a 2 sided rat. you'll drown in ur own oil!




On a lighter note, prom is jus round e corner! so is chalet. N job interviews! lala. i can see e $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

YEAH! i got the contacts liao!!!!!!!!!!!! wooot!!! ok off to watch my anime. Hope they'll interest me abit more. haha.

OK! due to extreme boredom, i've decided to post a 2nd entry this time. Seriously nothing really excites me much now or rather at this moment when i'm typing this entry. Not even asking me out to eat chocolate fondue even if it is ur treat, cos i'm too full now. Plus, i've not even taken my dinner yet. ot even e fried curry chicken wings are tempting me.




I want to do something useful. In my defination of useful, i mean working and earning money. Currently waiting for a friend whose on a holi to come back so we can go for job interview and also waiting for my uncle's reply abt me being hired at starhub. So what i'm doind now is wait.




In this period of waiting, i want to be useful too. BUT! BUT! BUT! Not by helping my couin-in-law to look after her kids. They are hers, not mine. I think i've don enough for her for e past few years. Well, in my defination, by being useful will be lowering my output of money, and trying to find ways to increase my input. Unfortunately, in my case it is quite impossible. So maybe i'll help my mum do the horrible chores and cheer my sister on for her exams. Well, tt is rather useful isn't it? haha. ok maybe i'm not making any sense here. haha. Suddenly, i remembered wat i've said to anuty ng. So maybe it might prove useful here and help me to be useful in a certain way? ( i don't think there is any sense in this statement. ) I shall read more books. Maybe more fictional homicides stories and a little more about the animals. YEAH!! haha. Animals like lions, monkeys, tigers, peacocks and other animals. Let's hope it will be rather useful for my future job! WOOT!




I think i'm going a little off, but well who cares? i guess if u have read is thus far u might be thinking i'm insane. As a matter of fact, i think i m. Slightly insane with a touch of sadistic-ness in me. haha.




To deliver u from my nonsense i shall kindly stop here and return to my storybook.

P.S. U MAY WAN TO BORROW THIS BOOK CALL SLEEPING WITH THE FISHES. it is rather funny. E starting is rather dry and boring but there are some humour present at the later part of the beginning and pinches of it throughout the book. haha.

I'm feeling soooooo tired today! even though i've wasted my life at co. maybe tt is y i'm so restless.




met up with kat and pass her her belated gift. haha. had a fun time making it. and can see she likes e present alot. ahah.




ok tt is all. lazy to type so much. i think i'm becoming lazier. haha. or maybe i'm jus relaxing. haha.

MUWAHAHA. i know got pple wanna ask me out n play and meet up so i'll shall put up e dates tt i'm not free. haha. btw i'm looking for a job. so there might still be changes but so far the timetable u see below will be fixed.







November

28 - Chinese orchestra practice (till 12.30p.m)
29 - CO practice ( 2 - 6p.m )





December
1 - CO practice ( whole day )
2 - Out the whole day
5 - Prom
6 - CO performance
11-13 - Chalet





ok tt is all! haha. anyway i'm broke so i hope all e activity is cheap!!! haha.

YEAH! AFTER A TERRIBLE LONG MONTH OF BATTLING WITH THE A LEVELS, IT IS FINALLY OVER!! i'm officially freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee till next year april. haha.




Also after a long month of not blogging, i'm kind of lazy to update my blog as often. haha. no urge to anyway. haha.




ok tt is all for updating. to lazy to type. haha. feel quite disconnected with the com and blogging.




ok bye folks!

WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. ok today is one of e happiest day. Some may think i'm crazy but hey i really high now. haha.




I got my ns enlistment letter! yeah! yeah! yeah! i'm going to report to basic military training centre school 2 on 9th of april in e morn at 9am! haha. FINALLY! I'm definitely looking forward for it. then i don have to stay at home. haha. Just hope there don have weird pple. or pple tt are crazy. lalala.lalala. WOOTS!




Ok tt is all! haha. YEAH!!

I hereby declare that SIJIE is a SMART BOY! Because he is going to sit for his A levels and he is going to compete with pple from RJ, VJ n other top JC! Imagine pple of calibre like sijie can compete with smart pple in RJ n VJ, he must be really smart.




HAHA! ok bullshit. haha. N i've seen one of e most horrible pics i've ever seen. Nv have i reacted in such a way in my life. I almost puke out my dinner!! can u believe it!!!! n now after seeing e pics, i've no more appetite. I've also been scared till my soul just left my body! haha. scary, ugly, disgusting and definitely a huge TURN OFF. haha.




I"M SMART!!!!

The haze seems to be getting worse!! n so is my cough. Guess those irrtants present in the air is irritating my throat. bad bad haze.




Also due to my wild imagination i've told aunties tt e haze seem to make s'pore look like london. Well, not 100% like n some wld say it doesn't. Well i agree with u, haha, cos i'm only refering to the misty kinda look, not tt i've been to london but just my imagination. aha. also it gives u kind of a mystical cum magical feeling like u are in some enchanted woods. haha. ok enuf crap. gtg study.




I"M A MUGGER!! n oh..it's freaking scary, 3 to 4 weeks to 'A's wonder how i'm going to survive it. hai...

muwhaha!! i shall post a disgusting pic here. haha. no i shld say it is "super sexy!" haha.
"sexy" right! haha. nthn much this week. same old stuff. n oh e number of times me oversleeping has been increasing!! THIS IS BAD!! haha. shall get more alarm clocks.




Mr Goh spoke to me, faezah n siti today. Hai..i'm also disappointed with e mock result! Could have been better! Sheeessh. Even yat yan is improving so much, y can't i jus improve as much as him? haha. n now he wan us to get 70 for paper 2. stress stress stress!!!!




anyway today is mid-autumn festival. e sch kinda sux anyway. poor planning!! how can they have e promos at this time!! then e sch cannot celebrate mid-autumn festival unlike last year. anw this year's mid-autumn also nthn special. don have e mooncake i wanna eat. i shall jus fill my tummy with pomelo. haha. Juicy juicy fruit!




ok nthn much liao..but i'm wondering who is annon. anyway to annon, if u don like e content in my blog, u can jus leave. I nv force u to stay n read and no point commenting if u ain't putting ur name. how insincere.

ROAR!!!! I FUMING MAD AFTER READING SOMETHING!!! ROAR!!! ROAR!!!







How can u have e cheek to say tt! HALO! we don't manupilate and USED pple. In e first place there is nthn for me to make use of from u. haha. Thinking abt it now, it seems rather funny. haha. As if u have LOTS of things to let us make use of. bleah~~~~~~







It also doesn't seems to me tt u have a great personlity either. I know we don have fantastic personalities and characters but hey, u are no better. If not why wld u even want to befriend us in e first place. Don tell me crap such as u are being tricked or we had a fake mask or shit like tt.







Also, i had the upmost respect for those pple who u consult them for advice. But after what i saw they had to say, i'm utterly disappointed. They don't know us well and it was only A ONE SIDED VIEW! Come on, i still know have some skills i learned from ss. So what they heard are literally BIASED! it is a biased source.







AND! AND! AND! we are no complicated at all. U thing we so free, make ourself seem so complicated? U think we got nthn better to do? I think it is e fact tt u thinktoo much. We are not complicated at all. Or maybe u don't understand us at all. I dare say tt i don think i understand u well enough. There is nthn to hide. Don force us to see it in ur way when u don see ours in e first place. To be mean, u have nv grow up at all.







BLEAH! haha. i shall finish up my dinner n throw away all this anger and fustration! ahah. lala. i'm a happy person.







anyway i saw JINGZHI TODAY!!!! haha. and yenling saw me but i nv see her. so sad. nvm shall see her on her next shift! haha.

It seems to be a very tense week. Not becos we gt our results back and stuff, but something seemed to have happened this week before and now there is this unseen hostility and tension ard us. Everywhere. Hard to fathomed what it is and it is even harder to comprehend what has taken place. Cos no one knows except those involve and those who were being filled in by those who were involve.




Hope this tension and hostility ard us vanish or dissipate. Cos i'm feeling rather stressed in such situation. Cos i'm at a lost on how to behave or react and i can't simply ignore it cos i can feel its existence so strongly. And i got my reconfirmation from others. So what to do? hmm..i donoe.




Maybe we shall see how the current situation will evolved to when e new week begins.

I hate everything around me now. And in case u can't sense anything, this post is typed in the moment of impulse and anger. If u are not interested in hearing me nag, whine or complain then forget it. U can jus leave right now.




Sometimes i jus wish i have the cutage to tell my cousins how much i hate them and how much i long for them to return to their own home. U can say i'm selfish but i see no point in y i shld share things in my hse with that fucking family. They have the same things as us but y must they keep using our stuff? Creating so much troubles and irritation in our lives? Y must i lend them my writing pen for them to draw? Halo! tt is for me to do my work NOT for u to fucking draw on a peice of paper. Y must we always lend them our com when they have one com and one lappy? Y? U DONNOE HOW TO FUCKING USE YOUR OWN COM IZZIT?




I'm not in e least gratefuk for them for making breakfast for us on sun mornings. Sorry but i wish to sleep longer n i hope u won't come to my hse so early and disturb us. We nv ask u to come to our hse and cooked breakfast for us. Seriously, i don find it nice of u. If u wan breakfast u can jolly well stay at ur fucking hse and cook ur own fucking dinner. Becos when u cook hear, we are the one wasking the dishes not u. U only make a mess out of it.




Sometimes i also hate myself for being so soft-hearted towards to fugly kids. I jus simply hate everything abt them. Their smile, their voice, their presence. It jus totally disgust every bit of me. They can hate me jus as much but i don give a fucking care. N i hope they hate me too. So they won have to come over to my hse and see my fugly face. There were always so many times tt i tot of moving out to live on mu won after my NS. Maybe i'll stay in e hostel during my uni times. provided tt i manage ot get into one. I rather wash my clothes, do the dishes and work part time to pay for the rent then to go home and face them. N most prob, i'll jus find a flat and rent it and nv to return home maybe only on weekends. I know it is very selfish of me but hey i jus wan to have a live of my own. A live woithout them, jus me. Afterall i only get to livee once. Finding time tt belongs to me isn't a crime. I've always hopt to collect anime figurines, anime dvds and have my own room with all my favourtie posters. Buti nv get to acheive them. Y? cos even they have to take up part of my hse.Becos of them i can't get wat i always wanted and because of them my hse is always ina mess. There are soooo many times tt i wished i cld bring my frens to my hse. But my mum always say the hse is in a mess and you cannot bring ur frens. So now, because of them i feel so restricted so tied up. i don feel at home at all. i see nthn tt belongs to me sometimes at all. They nv know jus how much inconveneice they have brought upon us, how much quarells my mum n dad had becos of them, how many times me n my sis gets so fustrated with them as well. They nv understand and they nv know.




Sometimes i jus don uderstand y can they see our helplessness and fustartion towards them? Are they jus trying to act dumb? Pretend not to see anything and continue bring them here so tt we can help them look after them and they can jus slack. Maybe moving is the best plan afterall or until i got the courage to tell them how mcuh i detest them and tt they shld jus go home where they belong and not come and impose on others. You knw what? i'm still counting the numbers of years they have been staying here. To surprise everyone, it is the 9th year..going to 10 soon. I have nv had my own home or family for 9 years. TT is pathehic n tt is what is driving me crazy.

ok i've done a mean thing today.



Very mean. serious. haha. but well..i jus can't help myself.




Alright i admit the fact tt i'm mean, but neither do u have to get so emotional over it. If u really care abt it then i think it is alright to get emotional. But if u treat us like dirt, what's those emotional show or act u are putting up for? Wallow in self-pity? Make yourself e victim?



Alright but i must admit ur act did make me feel guilty. But not towards you, but to others who have to suffer in my place.



N it does make me pity u. Seriously pity. U get it? I PITY YOU! you don have to feel happy abt it. No point. Cos it jus degrade yourself. Wanna know why? Oh, but i must warn u first, like i've said earlier - I M MEAN. So if u wanna continue reading, pls do but don't go ard telling other wat a poor thing u are or tt u cry to sleep after reading this entry. If u are not prepared - SHOO! -



But in case u wanna know how i pity u, pls carry on reading.




I pity u in a way tt u are ALONE. YES ALONE. U have frens ard u, but u treat them like dirt too. so tt make u ALONE.




I pity u becos u try to have high expectations for others but they don't now n they don meet up to them n you get disappointed. sad. TT's stupid. becos u don't cherish for who they are but u want them to be what u wan. U nv get real frens tt way. U DON'T!




I pity u bcos pple have to act they don mind listening to your complaints and tt u make them suffer more than u do but u'll nv get it. U NV WILL.




And since i pity u so much, i shall be nice to you in a way tt is evil too. I will smile at you whenever i see u. Be prepared to received my smiles. U don have to return them. You jus have to see those curves on my lips.




Oh a peice of advice. Reflect upon ur actions, not others.

WOOT! Prelims is officially over! ok, it was over abt a day ago. haha.




After prelims went swimming!! YEAH SWIMMING! n it has beeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnn soooooooooooooooooooo loooooooooooooooooooooonnnnng since i swam. haha. n i got burnt! real bad at e face n my upper arms but not my chest and back. BOO HOO! wat an uneven burn. haha.




After tt went home n rest. Soon i bath again n left e hse n meet sock hwee n sephine to go to marina bay to celebrate harry's birthday. Half of the grp went first while me, sock n speh waited for puden and shin jia. Then after they arrived we went to meet e rest at zhen fa. Ate quite a bit. After eating went to arcade to play. haha. i only spent 50cents! ahah. n seph had to treat me in order to make me play. haha. i'm rather evil n stingy when it comes to playing in e arcade. ahah. THX SEPH! if u are reading this. hha. after tt went home with e rest while shin jia, harry n yat yan stayed at e arcade. Upon reaching e station, me sock n speh went down to the mrt station while puden n gang went to the toilet. After a while we heard BOOM BOOM sound. then we realised it was fireworks!! so puden and gang n e 3 of us climbed up e slope and watched e fireworks. IT WAS BEAUTIFUl! all e colours!




After tt went home.







Ok n tt was yest. Today met up with eunice for breakfast! YES! she has came back from her europe trip. haha. had breakfast at the prata place near hans. IT IS GOOD! so long since we ate prata there. ahha. cheap too:) and air-conditioned! After tt went to upper thomson road to walk walk. Went to the foodcourt to see e pics eunice took and had calbury chocs!! n some belgium chocs too! YUMMY! after finish watching e photos went to ntuc to get some water n i was eating e chocs while walking. THEY SUPERB!! so long since i've eaten nice chocs! then went to northpoint. While waiting for aunty ng's sis to meet her, we went to arcade and play. haha. SO EX!tsk tsk tsk. DAYLIGHT ROBBERY! haha. but in e end i still play. haha. after tt went to take neoprint! ahha. n then we went separate ways.haha. N oh! eunice gave me e WHOLE BOX OF CHOCS!! CAlBURY CHOCS!! YES!! WHOLE BOX!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEEE!! haha.




n so, i'm drown into the pool of yummy chocs and flooded by endorphins released by the hypothalamus. haha. YEAH! THEY NICE!!

FINALLY! FINALLY! this week has passed.




It has been a super long week. brain draining and also a week tt kind of demoralize me.




First was bio paper. i feel tt it was ok. But mr azahar feedback tt our paper 2 so far no on pass. This is crazy. Then tues was maths n chem. Maths..hopefully can get anough to pass. Chem..i gues may may is going to shout at us again. Wed was bio paper 1. quite ok. thurs was chem paper 2. also gone case. SOOOO many question so little time. may may sure volcano erupt. or go monkey crazy. n today was maths paper 2. i think i'm pretty stupid. all of a sudden i cant do them.




hai..n now they say gp low passing rate. they might as well jus shoot me dead. sometimes i wonder what i'm doing too.




i'm so tired. tired of studying. tired of having exams. tired of going to sch and hear my teacher nag. tired of failing. i jus wan to sleep forever.

Most kids nowadays are rather loud. N i really mean LOUD. i was on a bus today going back home after studying with my fren and there was this bunch of students talking so loudly! Like as if their frens were all deaf or there were at the coffeeshop. At least my frens ain't tt loud. I've been witnessing such scenes for countless times. Usually these kids would be sitted at the back of the bus and i would usually aviod sitting at the back. Partly because they are pretty loud and partly because they're in a big grp and it is quite intimidating. haha. Laugh at me and call me coward but hey it's true. Sometimes they stink too. Literally.




N do i look very scary? There was this lady that actually came out of the lift when i pressed the button before the door closes. N when i enter the lift she quickly drag the kid out. What is her problem? i know i'm ugly but not ugly to the scary part. TT is so mean of her and i was so stupid not to check if she pressed the six level button. In the end she did and i stupidly jus walk out of the lift and found myself in a different env. haha. n when i walk back to the lift got 2 couples came down from e staircase and i think they were laughing at me. SO MALU! in the end i jus climbed up the stairs. EEEE. what a day. SHEEESSSHH. haha.




PRATA TML! WOOT! YES!! haha.

Received a shocking sms today from one of my frens. She told me e croc hunter-Steve Irwin has passed away while he was shooting a documentary film. He was killed by a stingray where its barb peirced through the the croc hunter's chest and into his heart. Well, a quite a piece of sad news cos i used to watch his croc hunter show n i like him. Funny and enthusiastic in what he do. It was also his passion for nature and attracted me to watch the show. Poor fellow.




Anyway today went out to study. It was quite productive i guess. haha. So little time so many things to study!! shall make better use of my time now. ok i shld update till here! haha. off to bath and study!! STUDY STUDY STUDY!! n yeah tml going out to study again!!! how i love studying outside!! it's rather productive! haha. ok bye guys!

Alright, i went blog hopping for awhile jus now and soon the green little monster call jealousy paid me a little visit. ahha. itchy itchy hands of mine. Well, i was surfing e blog of my sjab frens and reading those entries they wrote the duties they have n their relationship with their cadets kinda make me jealous.




Even though it has been like 2 to 3 years since my corps close down i still misses sjab. Even though how much i told pple i hate sjab, i actually misses it. What i really hate was the management at e headquarters and what i missed is the fun i had with my cadets, seniors and me fellow squad mates while doing duties, camps, parades or training. All those that i'll nv go thro again. No more first aid com, no more Jnco, snco and training camps, public duties. No more parades, commands to shout or drills to practise. No more medical tools to play with, to learn its usage. No more bandage to play with, no more partner to tie your bandage on. No more kisses with the dummies and molesting cases of the dummies as well. one last thing. No more forms to fill in.




Well, listing all these things made me sad. cos it is really NO MORE. Wonder if it'll appear again and even if it does it belongs to us (my ex corps pple) and not joining other sch. Because e feeling will nv be e same.




Suddenly, i miss wearing my uniform and wonder if my decision of not going to OTC under another corps was a mistake or not. hai..but all these are already the past. time to move on time to move on. how i hate this nostalgic feeling. it can be so funny at time when u think back. But now it is e sad part.




ok i shld go back n soaked myself into the wonderful world of chemistry.

Today was a so-so day. Had GP prelim 2. well nthn much to say.




after tt museum trip. shan't comment much on it. yes.



i shall not harp on bad things.



i shall not harp on bad things.



i shall not harp on bad things.




Went to civil defence heritage museum instead of history museum due to e change of venue of the history museum which is also known as e National museum now, located at Stamford Road. haha.




after museum trip went to town n walk with my class. another great bonding day. or maybe not? haha. more like search party going ard to search for lost sheeps. ahha. quite funny.




left ard 6plus or 7plus with jean. n it RAINED!. met eunice over at e underpass on e way home. ahha. gave her a shock. then went home. watched a few episodes of tsubasa chronicles n here i m updating on my blog.




haha. i'm kinda no life. well, too bad. i won't be even having ANY life for e next month or i shld say till my'A's is over. AHH..how wonderful. haha.




ok meeting with mr tay tml. yay! so long nv see him n can get free treat. MUWHAHA. but very paiseh. always he treat us. haha. but it is once a year only. haha.. ok i admit i'm thicked-skinned. but don worry not as thick as e rhinocerous' or elephant's skin. haha.

Teacher's Day is round the corner and tml all the schools would be having their teacher's day celebration. While, everyone of us has our own favourite teachers where we admired them for the hard work they put in and the amount of time they are willing to sacrifice to help us.




During my sec sch days, most of the teachers i've come acrossed or worked with are rather nice. haha. Well, compared to my JC teachers i guess they would naturally be much better.




Ever since i've came to this sucky JC, i've never really like any teachers or admire them like i do in sec sch execpt for a few (like my form teacher).




Many students hate or dislike him bacause of the way he does things. He is much like any other normal teacher that comes into the classroom and impart their knowledge to their students. However, he is slightly different than most teachers i've met in my JC life. You may be stupid or slow in your work, you may not be performing well in your studies but he doesn't scold or jeer at you, telling you that you are stupid or hopeless or ask u to drop your 'A's (like some dumbass). Instead he will stretch out his hand and pull you up. He constantly encourages you, giving you some pressure and yet at e same time assuring you that it is within your abilities to do it. He shares weird yet sometimes valuable lessons and stories with us during lesson time.




He may not be well-liked by the teachers as well in the school because of the unique approach he took. Despite that he has faith in himself and truely believes that we as his students are capable of doing well even though we may be looked down by other teachers. The time he sacrifices, the amount of hardwork and sweat he had put in and the countless motivation and encouraging moments he gave to us were exceptional. No other teacher can be like him.




He may be haughty at times but it was nv too much. I admire him for not giving up on us despite the fact that we might have failed him countless times as his students. Because of us he had to suffer insults or snide comments from other teachers but he nv once gave up on us. Sometimes i wonder where did he get so much strength to carry teaching and motivate us.




As his student, i'm proud to say i have a teacher like him. I guess i'll nv find another teacher like him. even though he won't be reading my blog but i'll still like to wish hm a happy teachers day! he rocks!

Seriously, maybe i'm jus too dumb for 'A' levels. Even though this time it was only a mock paper but still i failed it. Looking at my teacher's expression just made me speechless. Well, his expression wasn't only for me, but for his other classes as well. I don't understand why other people can jus laugh it off. Maybe this time i took it too seriously? Or what was it?




Sometimes i just wonder why had i take e jc path? To me, it seems like it was a terrible mistake. Even though it is too late to even think of it, i can't help myself but to think what would actually happen if i actually took e other path.




Maybe i'm jus another kid tt is going to waste my parents hard-earned money jus to get a cert filled with Fs. Well, maybe to prevent all this from happening, someone can jus kindly shoot me down. Don't worry i'll write a letter explain tt i forced u to shoot me down.




Now, everything jus seem so bleak, so dark, so cold.

The great escape plan operated today was considered a half failure-half success! Wasn't too happy with the outcome. But for now i shall talk abt e success.




Everything was moving smoothly and according to the plan in the morning. Mum and sis left the house at 9 along with my other cousins and aunties and neices (the nicer ones of course. not those monsters at my hse). Dad had to standby for work, so he went to bath. While i woke up, e phone rang. I picked up the phone and it was my nephew. He asked if my dad would bt at home but i told him no, he would be working. Then, he was quite happy when he said the next sentence, but being a mean unvle i crushed his hopes! MUWHAH. he assumed tt i wld be at home, but when i told him i wld be going out, i can hear a tinge of sadness and disappointment. And my heart was filling with joy and slight excitement! haha.





Anyway later in e morn met up with chiying and pass her, her birthday gift. Then had lunch at mac. Went to popular to get some pen. Ah..n i bought a black pen on impulse! BAD ME!!! becos of tt pen i spent $1.90 which i could have saved. STUPID ME! okt then after tt we went to kiddy to look at soft toys and then we headed to the mrt station. She went tot admiralty to have her tuition and i went tot khatib to meet zah to study. Saw a few pri sch fren. Baolong and ahmad zaki. haha. ahmad zaki called me first. he look abit diff. haha cos he kept long hair n he look abit like hagrid. ok i know i'm bad. but he really does. haha. then at ard 6 plus me and zah left mac and went separate ways. haha.





Ok, tt is all for the success. Everything was rather few except for ceratin events tt occur. and so i shall continue to narrate on the failure part.




Earlier on as my cousin knew tt there might be noone at home she decided to come to my hse to collect some stuff. Most prob milk powder and some clothes. Then my dad was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo foolish. HE GAVE THEM AN EXTRA SET OF OUR HSE KEYS! i was like for wat!!!!!!! aiyo! then nvm, if my dad did not had to standby for work he wld have been in msia. n our hse would not have been infested by pests.




Next, even if my dad was at home and he cooked dinner, there was no need for him to call then to come over for dinner. Why worry for them? they are old enuf to have e brain and $$$$ to feed their own child lor. i lnow i'm being mean but hey tt's a fact. Why so troublesome. Stupid pests! ok tt is all. I shall go study for my bio test tml.

Yeah!! i think i'm growing fatter. Maybe i'm jus dreaming but i jus feel tt i m growing fat. haha. tt is a gd sign. BUT!! BUT!!! it is growing fat at e wrong place!! i'm growing fat at my tummy!! tt is e last place i wan my fats to go. it is disgusting to have a pot belly for guys. i would rather have it at my arms. haha. ok i have plan my "Escape from e evil clutches of the idiotic and useless family" on sun. All shall proceed smooth without any hiccups. MY PLAN WILL AND SHALL WORK!

I jus received news tt shocked my soul out of my body for a split second. Yes! it is tt shocking. My family is going to msia this sun with my another cousin. n me being e suay kid who nv go renew e passport cannot leave s'pore. But i don mind not going. e worse part is knowing tt i'll have to stay with my f***king cousin n e f***ing kids. see now i can't contain my displeasure and how i abhor them.




it jus makes my blood boil to actually know tt i'm stuck with them. so i've decided to runanway from home on sun! i'll go to the woodlands regional library n study! I die also don wanna stay at home with them. so anyone interested in running away from home with me this sun? haha.

It's weird how men can actually have mood swings like women does. Well, it's all e hormones fault. N today is one of those days where my hormones are not working in order. Yes, i got my mood swing waving and smiling at me.




For what reason i do not know but i jus know tt i'm quite irritated by him today. Seriously no idea y. Somehow his look, his actions and behaviour disgust me much till e bones. haha. Funny how mood swings can do to one.




I also realise tt i'm becoming more n more dumb n i gess my dumbness and stupidity is irritating pple. But hey, u think i wan to be stupid and dumb? Sometimes if u think u are os great then go your screw yourself up before talking to me. DON ACT AS IF YOU ARE SO GREAT! In fact, there isn't any greatness in you at all.




See, mood swing. it does 'wonders'.




What a stressed up world i'm in now. ARRGH!! fustration.




Oh! Well, one happy event took place today. I FINALLY GOT MY HAIR CUT! yes! tt long, untidy, messy wild grass growing on my head is being cut! YES!




Well, tt's all.

Aiyar! jus now type a small entry but something wrong with e com then e whole window disappear. now my re-type.



Anyway yes, i actually had a draft of what i wanted to type earlier on, but i jus can't remember once i sat down on my com chair. Weird huh. haha.




The sch recently has gave e Jc2 this so-called condensed timetable. But after my class have observed e timetable, including all e remedials, it jus seemed e same as e orginal one except tt we do not have a lunch break. YES! NO LUNCH BREAK! can u hear my stomach growling now??? it goes like this "GRRRRRRRR..." but no worries, it won't be as lous as harry's. haha.




It seems to be tt staying in sch to study is quite fun afterall. haha. Well the productivity is average. n i had a fierce teacher. haha. Shin Jia is e fierce teacher. But he is gd. Oh, milo is gd too! So does milo + coffee. haha.




N i need a haircut desperately! My hair is super long and untidy n i look like shit. haha. anyway e hair also tickles my forehead cum eyebrows. haha. itchy itchy. n i feel tt i'm no different from e guy from s12. e big mushroom head who always block my view in e previous maths lecture. His hair also so messy n erm..ok shall not comment more cos i'm no better than him now. haha. anyway they say his head is e mushroom like in maple. haha! so pple grab ur swords or whatever n hit it hard! jus don mistook him from me. HAHA.




well there is nthn much i wld like to say anymore. *YAWN* i wanna sleep liao. gd night everyone. sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttt dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmssssssssssssssss

Phew! What a day.

James Blunt - You're Beautiful Lyrics

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
F**king high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Another year have passed and now Singapore is now 41! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!




Even after saying tt there wasn't any National Day mood in me this year. Seriously, none. Not even when i hear this year's National Day theme song. haha. Somemore it was quite a lonely ND for me this year. Why? cos everyone in my family went to my aunty hse. except for me, who wanted to be a mugger. Yet, in e end i didn't succeed. haha. I only watched the starting of the NDP performance. Love the parade. always do. haha. how i wish i cld be one of the soldiers standing there. Proudly. Will i have a chance? Somehow i see the word "Fat Hope" running across my mind. haha. n i miss long to see e fireworks! Not on tv though. after what i experienced last year, it really makes one want to see e fireworks even more. IT WAS ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS! but too bad this year no chance. Even my sis wasn't given e green light to go watch the firework display even though her one of her frens drove. So u think i'll have a chance? haha. Obviously no. anyway went blog hopping again. found this interesting webby n play with it. haha. n below is e result. haha.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Sijie!

1. Sijie is black with white stripes, not white with black stripes!
2. Sijie became extinct in England in 1486.
3. Sijie is the male seed of a flower blossom which has been gathered and treated by bees.
4. If you drop Sijie from more than three metres above ground level, he will always land feet-first.
5. While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their Sijie.
6. The condom - originally made from Sijie - was invented in the early 1500s.
7. The eye of an ostrich is bigger than Sijie!
8. White chocolate isn't technically chocolate, because it doesn't contain Sijie.
9. There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Sijie orbiting the Earth.
10. In Eastern Africa you can buy beer brewed from Sijie!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

when i saw e results i was laughing. haha.so funny. And i didn't know tt condom was made from me. haha. Now i can get condoms for free. HAHA. n see even choc needs me. I feel so honoured. N i jus remembered the name of e restaurant i had lunch at yest. it is call din tai feng! YES! i'm going to drag my parents for lunch when we have a holi next time. MWUUAHAHA. gonna burn a hole in their pockets. haha.

Today is National Day eve and school was halfday! yeah! well concert sux totally. except for e drama part. e singing part, they might as well jus shoot me in my head. seriously, those pple can't sing for nuts. e ba gua mei sounded worse than a screeching chicken. i think i sound better than her in the bathroom! haha.




after celebration, went down to town to get present. then had lunch at a chinese restuarant at wisma atria or izzit atrium? anyway it was at e 2nd level n e food was DELICIOUS!! YUMMY!!! i love e food. It is considered cheap when e food u eat is soooooooooooo nice!! I LOVE THE XIAO LONG BAO!! actually i like all e dishes we ordered! haha. then we saw this hk star!!!! and his wife!! both are actors and actresses!!! wanted to ask them for signature but in e end nv. ahha. such a rare sight! IMAGINE HK ACTOR AND ACTRESS!! WOOT! even though they are quite old. haha.




then we walked ard orchard then went home.




yup tt is all. e exciting and fun part is when we eat. haha. i'm a royalty! don play play! haha.

WOOT!! Finally! We're getting a half-day! YES FINALLY! i guess e sch still have some compassaion afterall.




n i've been blog hopping ard jus now. arhh..how i miss everyone. all my frens from sjab to sec. haha.




n i'm going town again tml! WOOT! i shld seriously study instead of going to town, but well, i'm gonna mug hard for e another 2 days. pray tt i don get buried by my notes. haha.




anyway i'm quite irritated in class today. Not the whole day though. It was quite a sudden feeling. wonder wat is wrong with tt person or maybe wat is wrong with me. haha. well who cares now. tt person shld be tamed. yes TAMED! if it was a dog i wld have put the mask ard his mouth so it wld shut up. haha.




i love peace and tranquility. haha. yes, hard to find. but well i'm making tonnes of noise at times too. maybe someone shld use e mask on me. haha.




hi ah ni!! i know u are reading this :D

Ar..today wasn't a very productive day. Did only functions from e revision booklet, watched lots of cartoons. n now doing chem. oh. eat tonnes of rubbish too n now i'm half constipated. haha. there's sch tml n i'm gonna stay back with zah to study. YES I MUST STUDY!!!!! ok.ahha. self motivation.




N oh! she chatted with me online yest! but my mum n sis was using e com! n i made her wait. i suppose she waited for pretty long. i'm so sorry! ( anyway i doubt she will see this. ) n in e end we only managed to chat less than 5 mins. haha. well at least next time she'll sms me if she wanna chat with me. haha. hopefully she remembers. so long since i chatted with her. haha.




lallaalalal... =D

I'm so bored now so i came to blogger to type this boring entry.




As u can see i'm also very bo liao, using a diff colour for every sentence.




I don feel like studying.




But there is nothing for me to do as well.




No nice tv programmes and games for me to play.




So maybe i shall jus be a hardworking and nice boy and go do my revision.




Or shld i continue to slack?




Ok i shall do both at the same time




And if i really manage to, i will teach u how.




haha. this is so lame




i've used every colour from every line. n now i'm done :)

Life is full of irony and paradox. One moment someone can be encouraging you and all of a sudden they can just scream their lungs out saying how lousy you are. Maybe i'm exaggerating but well its pretty true isn't it? Or does it only happens in ij?




This week was really full of ups and downs. It seems to be too drastic and dramatic. So much so that i find it quite unbelievable and maybe a bit shocking. Well at least there was a nice wrap up at the end. haha. YES! MOVIE WITH FRENS!!




We went to watch the lakehouse over at The Cathay. Simply love the theatres there and the popcorn was simply DELICIOUS!! YUM YUM!! Well, great movie plus great complany plus great food it definitely cancel out any anger or shock i had for the past few days.




Ok now time for me to digress a bit. haha. Today while i was running towards to the mrt i saw XIAO MEITING!!!! YEAH!! ok..ahha..so long nv see her. she looks e same:D haha. then chat with her for awhile. Then as i continue to run..i saw ELLIS! haha. i stopped and wish her happy birthday then after tt had a small chat. Then ran to the mrt again. N guess wat! all of these events happened within 6 mins! haha.




Then after the movie the aunties n me went to have dinner n guess who i saw this time! IT IS BIG MEITING N YAN NI!! WOOT!!! Theirs is really suuuuupppppeeeeeerrrrrrrrrr lllllllooooonnnngggggg nv see each other liao. Chat up abit only and got dating's new number. haha. then we went out separate ways.




WOOT!! quite happy today. haha. saw so many old frens!!!! how i miss them. ahha..now i hope to bump into huiying and kayee so can also chat up abit. haha.




What a great day i had today. *grins*

ok i'm here to blog again! anyway i think this entry is going to be a short part 2 of yest's entry. haha. during checkup yest got this sissy guy. to me he is worse than sister john, really cannot tahan e way he walk n speak. haha. shall not elaborate more if not i will start to have goosebumps. anyway i was laughing at him most of e time. haha. i'm evil.







Also, yest i was really stupid. i forgot my ez-link card has no more $$ n i need to take a bus back to the mrt station n i also donoe which bus stop to go to. so i decided to walk to redhill mrt station. at first i was walking ard CMPB becos i'm not sure to walk left or right. haha. so when i step out of e entrance i walk out from e left then walk back to e entrance n to the right of it. anyway, i climbed over an overheadbrigde n walk past donnoe where. i had no clue where i was. i had a map, not a detailed one though but still i try to look for road signs or buildings tt appear on e map n all of them were present. even though i walk alot of unnecessary paths before seeing many of those buildings. So i kept on walking like abt 1/2 hr to 45 mins. haha. n in e end i gave up on e map. so i decided to ask residents ard n in e end i end up at tiong bahru mrt station. 1 stop away from redhill. haha. anyway it was fun. really. it has been a year since i've walked for so long. always get to hike in camps but now no camp so it was quite fun. ni was amazed by myself. cos i tot i would die halfway walking but i didn't! i wasn't really tired jus tt i sweat alot. haha.







ok now is some random stuff. i'm currently watching this anime call Mai Hime. e show quite nice. ok going back to my studies!





everyone is tellng me to study, n i m. But do u know i feel very stessed up too? don't think jus becos i took a short break means i'm slacking. sometimes i hate to stay at home. i wanna run away from home. i hate it here at times.

I'm typing this entry while i wait for my anime to finish loading. Anyway now i'm having mixed feelings. Terrible one. I feel so sad, angry, stressed, scared n worried all at e same time. I donnoe wat is it tt makes me feel like tt, but somehow i jus feel tt e whole day has gone so wrong n something was mixing. ARRGGH!!







Anyway today went for the NS health checkup. Went with edward n his classmate-edmund n shinjia. Met at redhill mrt station n took a cab to the CMPB.







First was phototaking. the officer was abit crazy. well he was e normal kind of officer-e kind tt screams n shout one. Then went to the health checkup area.







My first stop was lab. Had a urine test n blood test. The officer at the lab was so cocky n got attitude. Only LCP but act big. e doc who drew my blood was funny. haha. i like e doc. Next was dental, had a dental checkup less than 1 min. They jus check e 4 end corners of my mouth. Most prob check for wisdom tooth. Next was a survey in a teeth x-ray room. After survey had an x-ray for my teeth. Then i proceed on to the X-ray checkup. Everything was graded Pes A. haha. then to the eye then to the ear station. i know it sounds pretty crude to put 'eye' n 'ear' but i forgot the proper terms for tt particular station. The ear station was funny, for me at least. When i was in this small room, i had to put on e earphone n listen carefully for sound. haha. while i put it on, e officer started to play some monotone sound, then at first i tot it was my own ear humming, haha, so i nv raise my hand then in the end he look at me n i look at him n i realised he play a sound liao. haha. Then after eye was station 6.







In the station 6 everyone was half naked. ahah. we got to go to the registration corner n coolect a locker key n take of our clothes, shoes n socks n place it into the locker together with our belonging. I was damn unlucky, got a locker that has a prob with its locking mechanism. It was diff unlock e locker n it was impossible to lock it. so in the end i did not lock my locker. haha. who would want my stuff. then went for the ECG or in laymans term went to have my heart check. E doc say i was too nervous n ask me to relax if not i would have to come back at e later time n get it check again. So i followed his instruction n closed my eyes n finally relaxed. N e station 6 was freaking cold!! then took my height n weight. I was still 166 but my weight drop from 48 to 47!!! 1 KG!!! i shld have forced 5 kg of food down my throat n by tt time went i took my weight, my stomach was growling. i was hungry. then took my blood pressure. Eveything was fine but i got a tick at e box labelled POOR PHYSIQUE! shit man. then took a queue number n wait for my turn to let e doc check. Inside e doc like in a rush like tt..rush me like mad. We had to take of our pants and underwear n cover our mouth with our right hand n cough. I wonder what was it for. then he listened to my heart beat n sent me out. Oh n he told me i was Pes B..ARRGH!! cos i was too skinny. EEE!!! chicken! even though i know i would be surely in Pes B, but still i wasn't happy.







Next was e IQ test which was also e last station. THERE WAS TONNES OF QUESTION WITH A SHORT TIME LIMIT. n most of the test i only complete abt 3/4 except for a few where i finished everything. do until my eyes blur. then after tt proceed to another registration area and handed up one of e forms n i was free! yup so i went home. ok tt is all.








hai..i still don feel gd. who will be there to comfort my soul?

TODAY IS A SCREWED UP DAY. FULL OF HORROR EVENTS.

I'm feeling stressed





I'm feeling so stressed




I'm feeling very stressed




I'm feeling super stressed




I'm feeling REAL STRESSED!!!





I'm sure u got my msg.

I had a weird dream today. It was considered as a nightmare and i had no idea why i could stuck with tt dream for so long. In e end i woke up with a shock in the middle of the night, trying to figure out what kind of dream i had before i slept again.




The dream took place in school and lots of places, but basically in school. The dream seem somewhat like a sequal. haha. cos i remember i had a similar dream before. This time students was affected by some weird disease and everyone became zombie except my friends. It seems like Dawn of the Dead, but the people weren't bloody or tt rotten. Many things were happening in the dream n i couldn't type everything out. Then later i was in a train with my family and somehow my dad was living at a different place with me, my sis n my mum. He was living alone. A scary thought.




I was chased by zombies and almost got bitten by them. I hid in places like classrooms with shatterd glasses, toilets, my room with infected pigeons trying to fly in through the window as well.




I woke up when i was almost attack by the stupid pigeon. It was ugly because it had a human face on it n it could talk. It was jeering at me. Stupid pigeon.



This is probably one of e weirdest dream i had for quite a long time. I use to have weird but fun dreams. This time it is getting creepier. Something must be wrong with my brain cells or i must have been thinking too much scary thoughts which is bad. Shall be even more +ve now.

" Sometimes in the midst of a crowd, i wish there was someone to hold my hands and lead me away"




" Bright ideas won dazzle if you are idle. "

Women. May be one of the most sophisticated living creature on earth. They are complex both physically as well as emotionally and probably mentally ( well, except for bimbos ).




Politics. To me, it is also complicated and I never like politics nor anything to do with politics.




Imagine women + politics = scary, horrifying women.




What makes me say that? Basically of what I saw in class. Horrifying might not be the word, but due to the deficiency in my vocabular, it should be e best word.




In my opinion, it is inevitable for class politics to occur in the first place. Because of different views, opinions and behaviour; conflicts arises and causes tension within the class.



Anyway, no one is at fault neither is anyone correct. To be able to understand or be able to mingle around with your classmates and to reduce the tension or misunderstanding, the most important tool is communication. If you are unwilling to communicate and to open yourself, people will then find it hard to communicate with you as well.




Like what most people say " It takes 2 hands to clap ." Both parties will have to work together to make it happen.




Well, let's just hope everything will be fine for everyone and that we will all study happily together.




If you are angry or upset, remember this:



Chant this sentence 10 times.



I am a peaceful soul

*Using a speaker*

" To all my loyal readers out there! Today you are in for a TREAT!! YES! You will be treated with an exclusive post! Rejoice everyone! This post is for you loyal fans out there!"

Ok, enough said now lets move on to the highlight of today's entry!



Saw e picture above? And you are wondering why do i post this picture up here right? Ok, let me enlightened you. Maybe by now u shld have guessed correctly, this is my nephew's family. YES E LOUSY FAMILY. WITH STUPID PARENTS AND NAUGHTY BRATS AND DEVILS. except maybe for the toddler, she is cute n fun at times. anyway i shall do soome proper intor for u guys. From the left, my idiotic nephew, his father, the mother, e cute toddler, e devil sister.

Ok i guess this has filled your curiosity on how they look like.

That is all for today's post. Short yet enlightening.

Love alot, trust a few.

Yes! it is finally e weekend n it is going to be a long weekend! cos there is no sch on mon :D but still there are tonnes of revision to be done. everyone is studying so hard now cannot slack anymore. well, with e amt of hardwork we put in, i'm sure we will definitely reap all e hardwork we sow! so everyone gambatte! shall motivate one another and persevere on!

SPOOKY! haha. a so call spooky event has happened to me today.




It happened in e train while i was going back home. There was an uncle sitting beside and while i was half-dazing, he tapped my shoulder n call me: 'Xiao di, can u help me take a look at my hp, i while to change it to chi text writing. Can u help me change this weird thingy ( he was refering to the text format at e top left hand corner of the phone)." Then after i have changed for him, i thought he would not talk to me anymore but all of a sudden he spoke again. This time asking me if i study in a JC n what JC was it n he told me some weird name JC. haha. n i told him tt is not my JC n i told him e name of my sch n e location of e sch 3 times. Then he carry on e conversation by telling me abt his son, his younger bro's son, his elder bro's son and his fren tt ran away from army. He keep telling me alot of stuff abt his family n i wonder y. haha. It really spooked me cos i wasn't prepared for all of this n it caught me while i was half-daze. haha. n my frens sitting beside me in e train tot i knew e uncle! haha. n while he was talking i keep having the urge to laugh, cos it was partly amusing as well. I do not know him at all and yet he told me all abt his family. While on the soft side, maybe he jus need to talk to someone. Afterall he seems quite sad. Hopefully e sudden conversation with him has made him feel much better. haha. Well n i also hope such incident will not happen again.




Oh after e train incident, there was this guy in e bus. He kept on pressing the bell after e bus has drove off the previous stop n it was quite irritaing cos e bell jus keep ringing n i can hear e bus driver making a "tsk" sound very loudly. ahha

ok time to update. for the past few days i've been suffering from headache. at first it was jus slight pain at e temples. then e pain intensify n it became unbearable. keep taking naps but it doesn't work. i tried not to reply on e pills, but then in e end still have to take. n becos of my headache, i did not complete what i need to complete over e weekend. hope when mon arrives e pain will be gone. ok back to my work. rush rush rush!

While waiting for my anime to load on youtube, i've decided to post my second entry of the day now.




hmm..actually i want to watch disney channel wan. If i'm not wrong they are showing the high scholl musical repeat today!!! disney channel own production n those pple there can really sing!! n they are of my age. or i think so. haha. anyway i saw e making during e holis n i really wan to watch the show but hai..they watching some variety tv show n come to think of it i don really like vatiety shows. no idea y.




but i will ever like them again? n hate anime? or will i continue to watch anime forever? ahah..not a bad idea anyway. ok tt is all for my second entry.

Sometimes it is not too bad to be sick afterall. because u get to do things a sick patient would do or get to do w/o being scolded or i think so. haha.




say for e.g sick pple tend to get fustrated easily right? so in any case i get to flared up easily n get to shout at kids much easier n pissed off their parents just as easy as i pissed off their kids. haha.




sometimes being sick also makes u being labelled as dangerous man/woman. STAY CLEAR FROM HIM. for my case, i don mind being labelled tt. BUT it only applies to when my cousin brings ALL her kids home esp on weekends. tt will make me super happy. haha.




well of course, i'm happy typing this entry which means out of e 2 things i stated above, all 2 had happened! haha. yeah! well, tt doesn't mean i wanna get sick every week. i'm not tt stupid nor crazy. But instead i must try and enjoy every moment of peace while i can when i'm sick. ok tt doesn't make any sense right? cos i also donnoe what i'm typing now. haha.




ok gtg. i might do multiple post today..it seems fun. ahha

HIP HIP HURRAY!!



exams are finally over! ok at least for now. cos they are still my prelims 2 n my 'A' levels. haha. lame.




anyway thx to my wonderful neice (e 2nd one), i'm down with flu, cough n slight sore throat at e last of my holis. n bcos i'm too lazy to study within e 2 weeks i've wasted, i had to study n burn midnight oil during e last week making everytihng worse. n i also don dare to take medicine when sch reopen cos o exam. ahha. scared later do until i sleep. anyway NOW ITS OVER!! n i've got a loooooonnnngggg weekend. actually only 3 days. MWUHAHA..but still can rest.




well..nthn much to say. OH! today saw yt. he look e same. ahha. ok really nthn much.




oh actually i will miss studying n exams. cos don have to face teacher..n after exam can go home. now when sch really starts..SIAN..must stay in sch for LONG LONG LONG hrs. haha.




ok tt is all for today. ciao

ARRGH!! ok i'm actuallu wasting my time here, co si'm suppose to do my last min maths revision. n what am i doing here? cos i feel so lousy!! I KEEP getting stuck!! n i'm at a lost! i'm really afraid for tml's arrival. i'm even having nightmares for several night bcos exam is coming.




I FEEL SO GODDAMN STRESS N AFRAID N LOUSY!! I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN N I DO NOT HAVE THE COURAGE TO KNOW. I'M AFRAID TO FAIL N TO SUFFER ITS CONSEQUENCES. I'M EVEN MORE AFRAID TO GO AND ATTEMPT THE PAPERS!! I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF AT ALL!




hai..it is like awaiting for the day i die. or maybe i'm already dead.

Recently, i read on the papers abt an article on s'pore's decreasing birthrates showing all e staticstics n stuff and what happened in my hse today jus made me realise something.





firstly i'm not trying to discourage giving birth to kids. I'm not against the government or wat-so-ever. But i jus like to say that give birth only if u are capable of making sure that:



1) u are capable of rasinging that kids financially



2) u are able to look after ur kids and not throw to others



3) u know what ur kids wan when they are crying and u do not jus shout at them even when u know it is futile



4) u are able to look after ur kids physically yourself! (quite close to point 2)





what i'm trying to say is that, u give birth not only jus to please e elderlys but u give birth because u are sure u can raise tt kid to a fine young man/woman. Also that u are sure u can take up tt challenge of raising themselves YOURSELF! n look for help when u need to n not DEPEND ON THEM ALL E TIME!





it really pissed me off and make my heart break at the same time when i see my cousin-in-law looking after her kids. or does she even looks after them? Basically, i can see the furture of my nephew n niece. Bleak very bleak. and wat does my cousin do? SLEEP N JUS LET THEM BE! OR JUS SHOUT AT THEM THEN IGNORE THEM! what great skills in looking after e kids.





and it is super dumb! when u give birth to 3 kids and u jus throw it all to ur relatives to look after them. HALO!!! THOSE KIDS ARE YOURS!! EVEN CHILDCARE CENTRES LOOK AFTER THOSE KIDS FOR A CERTAIN TIME!!




ARRGH!! jus makes my blood boils!! and it is super fustrating! when ur toddler wakes up n cry, usually u will go to them n comfort them but what does my cousin-in-law do? she shouts at e toddler. "what u wan? huh tell me what u wan!?" n so e toddler cries louder. then she uses e soft approach " ok..tell me what u wan??" n e toddlers was crying and trying to tell her at e same time. but less than a min she changed. " WHAT DO U WAN?? TELL ME WAT DO U WAN?" n so e baby cries again. how nice! i can jus conclude she is super dumb! Fancy giving birth to 3 kids when she is nowhere even capable of looking after 1 kid.





i guess freak accidents can jus happen anytime to any of her kids if she were to be looking after them ather hse. No, it shld be letting her 3 kids play ard e hse while she takes her beautiful afternoon naps when she wakes up so bloody later like 9 or 10 in e morn. i guess she will still be sleeping so ever soundly if her kids were to play in e kitchen with e gas stove and they jus die in an explosion.





ARRGH!! i jus hate such stupid mums! i'm not against those mum who sent their kids to childcare centres. I'm jus angry at those stupid mums that can give birth but cannot look after their own freaking child. So, pls think twice if u wanna give birth. U don wanna leave ur kids unattended and die in freaking accidents nor do u wan to ruin other relative of their lives nor u wan ur kids to grow up and become useless and not being able o contribute to the society.





N OH! my ever so " DEAR" nephew is actually 44kg! n he is only 9 years old!i jus hope he dies of choking onto his own fats! or roll down the stairs or watever freak accidents tt can happen to him.

WOOT! blogging time again. haha. my way of de-stressing for now. i'm so looking forward for this sat. Hope it will be bright and sunny n no auntie will visit any of the aunties. haha. lalalala.




n oh. i've sinned! hai. feel so guilty. hmm. nv will feel better later. haha. ok my show has started off to watch my tv! WOOT!




haha! study ntil brain burn! WOOT!!




WOOT WOOT WOOTY!

I have nothing to say or to type for this entry. Nothing is in my mind right now. haha. Somehow everytime when i'm abt to go to sleep, i have thousands of things i wan to type here. But in times like now, nthn is in my head. haha.




haha. so i come here n type for fun! WOOT! it is so fun. haha. ok shall stop it. making myself look stupid.