Today is jus the starting of e week n i feel like as if i've screwed up e rest of e week itself. This is bad. Very bad. i'm jus looking forward for e weekends. YES E SUPER LONG ONE!




Recently, i jus feel that i've been getting more temperamental. Even if i've might not shown it, i feel it. I donnoe why but i keep getting very angry easily. n yes getting angry at my friends. I don't know y, but i'm sure it is not their fault. It is mine. Something is very wrong with me n i donnoe where. I donnoe if any of my mood swings actually pissed them off but somehow i guess it did. I'm sure it has. But they are very very nice pple n so they jus nv say anything. i think there is jus something wrong with me esp when i communicate with them. they don get wat i say n i don get them. But they themselves understand what e other party is trying to say. i'm not saying it is their fault. If both of them can understand each other perfectly, y can't i understand them? forget it. i shan't talk more.




I also donnoe what i'm worrying abt. My 'A's? My future? Money? i really donnoe. There is jus a thousands of mixed things going around my brain and heart n at certian times, i don't even know what i'm feeling. It's all so mixed up. I wonder what is going on with me. I really do. I find tt i'm not like what i'm used to be. I guess i used to be more cheerful, i used to laugh more. Yet, recently i tend to frown more? Get angry more easily? Get cranky more easily? Once again..i donnoe.




it seems like there are jus so many uncertainties going on with my life right know. I don't even know what i'm feeling! or maybe i'm jus heartless. seems like e rain made me cranky. or i'm jus cranky even wihout e rain. N once again..all this does not make any sense at all. Yup. Not one bit.




even drinking choc banana does not make me happy. what shld i do? i missed e peaceful week i've experienced last week. It was a blessing for me yet it was someone else sorrow. Now, i feel so lost. Both in my own world n the world i'm living in right now. All is so noisy n irritaing. I hate noise. I hate irritaing noise. N i hate noise made by my nephew n niece even more. i would trade for my cable tv and my handphone and all e seoul garden, chomp chomp, kenny rogers or watever trips i wan to make jus to make them leave my hse or my life forever.




hai..i'm whining again. as usual. afterall i'm a human. A wierd one? maybe. ok. time's up for typing so much nonsense. m homework all summoning me. bye all. n now i'm wondering to whom i saying bye to, when e blog is only read by me.