Friday, July 28, 2006

I'm typing this entry while i wait for my anime to finish loading. Anyway now i'm having mixed feelings. Terrible one. I feel so sad, angry, stressed, scared n worried all at e same time. I donnoe wat is it tt makes me feel like tt, but somehow i jus feel tt e whole day has gone so wrong n something was mixing. ARRGGH!!







Anyway today went for the NS health checkup. Went with edward n his classmate-edmund n shinjia. Met at redhill mrt station n took a cab to the CMPB.







First was phototaking. the officer was abit crazy. well he was e normal kind of officer-e kind tt screams n shout one. Then went to the health checkup area.







My first stop was lab. Had a urine test n blood test. The officer at the lab was so cocky n got attitude. Only LCP but act big. e doc who drew my blood was funny. haha. i like e doc. Next was dental, had a dental checkup less than 1 min. They jus check e 4 end corners of my mouth. Most prob check for wisdom tooth. Next was a survey in a teeth x-ray room. After survey had an x-ray for my teeth. Then i proceed on to the X-ray checkup. Everything was graded Pes A. haha. then to the eye then to the ear station. i know it sounds pretty crude to put 'eye' n 'ear' but i forgot the proper terms for tt particular station. The ear station was funny, for me at least. When i was in this small room, i had to put on e earphone n listen carefully for sound. haha. while i put it on, e officer started to play some monotone sound, then at first i tot it was my own ear humming, haha, so i nv raise my hand then in the end he look at me n i look at him n i realised he play a sound liao. haha. Then after eye was station 6.







In the station 6 everyone was half naked. ahah. we got to go to the registration corner n coolect a locker key n take of our clothes, shoes n socks n place it into the locker together with our belonging. I was damn unlucky, got a locker that has a prob with its locking mechanism. It was diff unlock e locker n it was impossible to lock it. so in the end i did not lock my locker. haha. who would want my stuff. then went for the ECG or in laymans term went to have my heart check. E doc say i was too nervous n ask me to relax if not i would have to come back at e later time n get it check again. So i followed his instruction n closed my eyes n finally relaxed. N e station 6 was freaking cold!! then took my height n weight. I was still 166 but my weight drop from 48 to 47!!! 1 KG!!! i shld have forced 5 kg of food down my throat n by tt time went i took my weight, my stomach was growling. i was hungry. then took my blood pressure. Eveything was fine but i got a tick at e box labelled POOR PHYSIQUE! shit man. then took a queue number n wait for my turn to let e doc check. Inside e doc like in a rush like tt..rush me like mad. We had to take of our pants and underwear n cover our mouth with our right hand n cough. I wonder what was it for. then he listened to my heart beat n sent me out. Oh n he told me i was Pes B..ARRGH!! cos i was too skinny. EEE!!! chicken! even though i know i would be surely in Pes B, but still i wasn't happy.







Next was e IQ test which was also e last station. THERE WAS TONNES OF QUESTION WITH A SHORT TIME LIMIT. n most of the test i only complete abt 3/4 except for a few where i finished everything. do until my eyes blur. then after tt proceed to another registration area and handed up one of e forms n i was free! yup so i went home. ok tt is all.








hai..i still don feel gd. who will be there to comfort my soul?

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

TODAY IS A SCREWED UP DAY. FULL OF HORROR EVENTS.

Monday, July 24, 2006

I'm feeling stressed





I'm feeling so stressed




I'm feeling very stressed




I'm feeling super stressed




I'm feeling REAL STRESSED!!!





I'm sure u got my msg.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I had a weird dream today. It was considered as a nightmare and i had no idea why i could stuck with tt dream for so long. In e end i woke up with a shock in the middle of the night, trying to figure out what kind of dream i had before i slept again.




The dream took place in school and lots of places, but basically in school. The dream seem somewhat like a sequal. haha. cos i remember i had a similar dream before. This time students was affected by some weird disease and everyone became zombie except my friends. It seems like Dawn of the Dead, but the people weren't bloody or tt rotten. Many things were happening in the dream n i couldn't type everything out. Then later i was in a train with my family and somehow my dad was living at a different place with me, my sis n my mum. He was living alone. A scary thought.




I was chased by zombies and almost got bitten by them. I hid in places like classrooms with shatterd glasses, toilets, my room with infected pigeons trying to fly in through the window as well.




I woke up when i was almost attack by the stupid pigeon. It was ugly because it had a human face on it n it could talk. It was jeering at me. Stupid pigeon.



This is probably one of e weirdest dream i had for quite a long time. I use to have weird but fun dreams. This time it is getting creepier. Something must be wrong with my brain cells or i must have been thinking too much scary thoughts which is bad. Shall be even more +ve now.

Friday, July 21, 2006

" Sometimes in the midst of a crowd, i wish there was someone to hold my hands and lead me away"




" Bright ideas won dazzle if you are idle. "
Women. May be one of the most sophisticated living creature on earth. They are complex both physically as well as emotionally and probably mentally ( well, except for bimbos ).




Politics. To me, it is also complicated and I never like politics nor anything to do with politics.




Imagine women + politics = scary, horrifying women.




What makes me say that? Basically of what I saw in class. Horrifying might not be the word, but due to the deficiency in my vocabular, it should be e best word.




In my opinion, it is inevitable for class politics to occur in the first place. Because of different views, opinions and behaviour; conflicts arises and causes tension within the class.



Anyway, no one is at fault neither is anyone correct. To be able to understand or be able to mingle around with your classmates and to reduce the tension or misunderstanding, the most important tool is communication. If you are unwilling to communicate and to open yourself, people will then find it hard to communicate with you as well.




Like what most people say " It takes 2 hands to clap ." Both parties will have to work together to make it happen.




Well, let's just hope everything will be fine for everyone and that we will all study happily together.




If you are angry or upset, remember this:



Chant this sentence 10 times.



I am a peaceful soul

Sunday, July 16, 2006

*Using a speaker*

" To all my loyal readers out there! Today you are in for a TREAT!! YES! You will be treated with an exclusive post! Rejoice everyone! This post is for you loyal fans out there!"

Ok, enough said now lets move on to the highlight of today's entry!



Saw e picture above? And you are wondering why do i post this picture up here right? Ok, let me enlightened you. Maybe by now u shld have guessed correctly, this is my nephew's family. YES E LOUSY FAMILY. WITH STUPID PARENTS AND NAUGHTY BRATS AND DEVILS. except maybe for the toddler, she is cute n fun at times. anyway i shall do soome proper intor for u guys. From the left, my idiotic nephew, his father, the mother, e cute toddler, e devil sister.

Ok i guess this has filled your curiosity on how they look like.

That is all for today's post. Short yet enlightening.

Love alot, trust a few.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Yes! it is finally e weekend n it is going to be a long weekend! cos there is no sch on mon :D but still there are tonnes of revision to be done. everyone is studying so hard now cannot slack anymore. well, with e amt of hardwork we put in, i'm sure we will definitely reap all e hardwork we sow! so everyone gambatte! shall motivate one another and persevere on!

Monday, July 10, 2006

SPOOKY! haha. a so call spooky event has happened to me today.




It happened in e train while i was going back home. There was an uncle sitting beside and while i was half-dazing, he tapped my shoulder n call me: 'Xiao di, can u help me take a look at my hp, i while to change it to chi text writing. Can u help me change this weird thingy ( he was refering to the text format at e top left hand corner of the phone)." Then after i have changed for him, i thought he would not talk to me anymore but all of a sudden he spoke again. This time asking me if i study in a JC n what JC was it n he told me some weird name JC. haha. n i told him tt is not my JC n i told him e name of my sch n e location of e sch 3 times. Then he carry on e conversation by telling me abt his son, his younger bro's son, his elder bro's son and his fren tt ran away from army. He keep telling me alot of stuff abt his family n i wonder y. haha. It really spooked me cos i wasn't prepared for all of this n it caught me while i was half-daze. haha. n my frens sitting beside me in e train tot i knew e uncle! haha. n while he was talking i keep having the urge to laugh, cos it was partly amusing as well. I do not know him at all and yet he told me all abt his family. While on the soft side, maybe he jus need to talk to someone. Afterall he seems quite sad. Hopefully e sudden conversation with him has made him feel much better. haha. Well n i also hope such incident will not happen again.




Oh after e train incident, there was this guy in e bus. He kept on pressing the bell after e bus has drove off the previous stop n it was quite irritaing cos e bell jus keep ringing n i can hear e bus driver making a "tsk" sound very loudly. ahha

Sunday, July 09, 2006

ok time to update. for the past few days i've been suffering from headache. at first it was jus slight pain at e temples. then e pain intensify n it became unbearable. keep taking naps but it doesn't work. i tried not to reply on e pills, but then in e end still have to take. n becos of my headache, i did not complete what i need to complete over e weekend. hope when mon arrives e pain will be gone. ok back to my work. rush rush rush!

Sunday, July 02, 2006

While waiting for my anime to load on youtube, i've decided to post my second entry of the day now.




hmm..actually i want to watch disney channel wan. If i'm not wrong they are showing the high scholl musical repeat today!!! disney channel own production n those pple there can really sing!! n they are of my age. or i think so. haha. anyway i saw e making during e holis n i really wan to watch the show but hai..they watching some variety tv show n come to think of it i don really like vatiety shows. no idea y.




but i will ever like them again? n hate anime? or will i continue to watch anime forever? ahah..not a bad idea anyway. ok tt is all for my second entry.
Sometimes it is not too bad to be sick afterall. because u get to do things a sick patient would do or get to do w/o being scolded or i think so. haha.




say for e.g sick pple tend to get fustrated easily right? so in any case i get to flared up easily n get to shout at kids much easier n pissed off their parents just as easy as i pissed off their kids. haha.




sometimes being sick also makes u being labelled as dangerous man/woman. STAY CLEAR FROM HIM. for my case, i don mind being labelled tt. BUT it only applies to when my cousin brings ALL her kids home esp on weekends. tt will make me super happy. haha.




well of course, i'm happy typing this entry which means out of e 2 things i stated above, all 2 had happened! haha. yeah! well, tt doesn't mean i wanna get sick every week. i'm not tt stupid nor crazy. But instead i must try and enjoy every moment of peace while i can when i'm sick. ok tt doesn't make any sense right? cos i also donnoe what i'm typing now. haha.




ok gtg. i might do multiple post today..it seems fun. ahha

Friday, June 30, 2006

HIP HIP HURRAY!!



exams are finally over! ok at least for now. cos they are still my prelims 2 n my 'A' levels. haha. lame.




anyway thx to my wonderful neice (e 2nd one), i'm down with flu, cough n slight sore throat at e last of my holis. n bcos i'm too lazy to study within e 2 weeks i've wasted, i had to study n burn midnight oil during e last week making everytihng worse. n i also don dare to take medicine when sch reopen cos o exam. ahha. scared later do until i sleep. anyway NOW ITS OVER!! n i've got a loooooonnnngggg weekend. actually only 3 days. MWUHAHA..but still can rest.




well..nthn much to say. OH! today saw yt. he look e same. ahha. ok really nthn much.




oh actually i will miss studying n exams. cos don have to face teacher..n after exam can go home. now when sch really starts..SIAN..must stay in sch for LONG LONG LONG hrs. haha.




ok tt is all for today. ciao

Sunday, June 25, 2006

ARRGH!! ok i'm actuallu wasting my time here, co si'm suppose to do my last min maths revision. n what am i doing here? cos i feel so lousy!! I KEEP getting stuck!! n i'm at a lost! i'm really afraid for tml's arrival. i'm even having nightmares for several night bcos exam is coming.




I FEEL SO GODDAMN STRESS N AFRAID N LOUSY!! I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN N I DO NOT HAVE THE COURAGE TO KNOW. I'M AFRAID TO FAIL N TO SUFFER ITS CONSEQUENCES. I'M EVEN MORE AFRAID TO GO AND ATTEMPT THE PAPERS!! I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF AT ALL!




hai..it is like awaiting for the day i die. or maybe i'm already dead.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Recently, i read on the papers abt an article on s'pore's decreasing birthrates showing all e staticstics n stuff and what happened in my hse today jus made me realise something.





firstly i'm not trying to discourage giving birth to kids. I'm not against the government or wat-so-ever. But i jus like to say that give birth only if u are capable of making sure that:



1) u are capable of rasinging that kids financially



2) u are able to look after ur kids and not throw to others



3) u know what ur kids wan when they are crying and u do not jus shout at them even when u know it is futile



4) u are able to look after ur kids physically yourself! (quite close to point 2)





what i'm trying to say is that, u give birth not only jus to please e elderlys but u give birth because u are sure u can raise tt kid to a fine young man/woman. Also that u are sure u can take up tt challenge of raising themselves YOURSELF! n look for help when u need to n not DEPEND ON THEM ALL E TIME!





it really pissed me off and make my heart break at the same time when i see my cousin-in-law looking after her kids. or does she even looks after them? Basically, i can see the furture of my nephew n niece. Bleak very bleak. and wat does my cousin do? SLEEP N JUS LET THEM BE! OR JUS SHOUT AT THEM THEN IGNORE THEM! what great skills in looking after e kids.





and it is super dumb! when u give birth to 3 kids and u jus throw it all to ur relatives to look after them. HALO!!! THOSE KIDS ARE YOURS!! EVEN CHILDCARE CENTRES LOOK AFTER THOSE KIDS FOR A CERTAIN TIME!!




ARRGH!! jus makes my blood boils!! and it is super fustrating! when ur toddler wakes up n cry, usually u will go to them n comfort them but what does my cousin-in-law do? she shouts at e toddler. "what u wan? huh tell me what u wan!?" n so e toddler cries louder. then she uses e soft approach " ok..tell me what u wan??" n e toddlers was crying and trying to tell her at e same time. but less than a min she changed. " WHAT DO U WAN?? TELL ME WAT DO U WAN?" n so e baby cries again. how nice! i can jus conclude she is super dumb! Fancy giving birth to 3 kids when she is nowhere even capable of looking after 1 kid.





i guess freak accidents can jus happen anytime to any of her kids if she were to be looking after them ather hse. No, it shld be letting her 3 kids play ard e hse while she takes her beautiful afternoon naps when she wakes up so bloody later like 9 or 10 in e morn. i guess she will still be sleeping so ever soundly if her kids were to play in e kitchen with e gas stove and they jus die in an explosion.





ARRGH!! i jus hate such stupid mums! i'm not against those mum who sent their kids to childcare centres. I'm jus angry at those stupid mums that can give birth but cannot look after their own freaking child. So, pls think twice if u wanna give birth. U don wanna leave ur kids unattended and die in freaking accidents nor do u wan to ruin other relative of their lives nor u wan ur kids to grow up and become useless and not being able o contribute to the society.





N OH! my ever so " DEAR" nephew is actually 44kg! n he is only 9 years old!i jus hope he dies of choking onto his own fats! or roll down the stairs or watever freak accidents tt can happen to him.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

WOOT! blogging time again. haha. my way of de-stressing for now. i'm so looking forward for this sat. Hope it will be bright and sunny n no auntie will visit any of the aunties. haha. lalalala.




n oh. i've sinned! hai. feel so guilty. hmm. nv will feel better later. haha. ok my show has started off to watch my tv! WOOT!




haha! study ntil brain burn! WOOT!!




WOOT WOOT WOOTY!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

I have nothing to say or to type for this entry. Nothing is in my mind right now. haha. Somehow everytime when i'm abt to go to sleep, i have thousands of things i wan to type here. But in times like now, nthn is in my head. haha.




haha. so i come here n type for fun! WOOT! it is so fun. haha. ok shall stop it. making myself look stupid.

Monday, June 12, 2006

today i shall post the lyrics of a song. this song is nice. in fact it is very nice. very soothing.





Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On







Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.




Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
And nothing seems to change, and it all will stay the same.
Oh, don't you hesitate.




Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.




You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.




Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that awful hairdo.




Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?




Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.




You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.




Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.




Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.



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Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.




Oh, You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Finally!! after login n signing for like 3 times n waiting for donnoe how long! this post page finally appear!!!





ok anyway doing a quick update of wat happen this week n how my life has once again turned 360 degrees after those disgusting creatures return from hk.





ok firstly: mon. yeah those disgusting creatures have already landed on e grd of hk! free at least from their noises n unreasonable attitude n actions. n had a statistics mock test. haha. predicted fail n prediction was correct so got to stay in sch from 8 to 5. n when i went home my mum told me my niece vommitted n had a fever! haha! stupid!! parents bringing sick children over to hk. serve them right!





tues: yeah!! go sentosa. but e weather was horrible. it was raining e whole day. but still enjoy ourselves. hha. hilarious events happened such as e worm attack n husky appearance. we shld go on a sunny day:) ahha.





wed: went back to my 'lovely' sch. ahha. n who wld be so silly to stay from 8 to 5? haha. me n my classmates satyed from 8 to 1130 n went to have lunch n walk ard CWP n went home.





Thurs: went back to sch. had chem lecture. then went for lunch n went to e lib to study. anyway teacher was absent! depsite his email stating tt he will be in sch on thurs. apparently he had disappeared but tt is great news! ahha..cos we left at 3 plus.





fri: went to sy's hse to celebrate her birhtday. apparently me n aunty bern was e earliest guests! haha. n i'm even earlier than aunty bern!! yeah yeah!! haha. ok n we ate from 12 to 2 or 3 plus. then e gals played mahjong while i watch my anime. then we had cake at ard 5? ahha..then at 6 plus we had steamboat again! we were practically eating e whole day. anyway e soup was tom yam!! it was shoik!!





sat: ewww..e kids returned! n they are all very irritating. my dad also cannot tahan in the end i shouted at them. i keep staring n diao-ing them. irritating!! n stupid mother..keep sleeping! fat n idiotic nephew tt keeps lying on the floor acting soo sick! hope he goes blind after soo much of lying on the floor watching tv. n hopefully he choked to death too! for all i care, he can go n die. now e hse so noisy! i can feel a war is coming its way. most prob will be started by me. stupid kids..idiotic kids..n lousy parents. ARRGH!! n sometimes when u sneeze n pple say blessed u..i will say blessed u in dying earlier. MUWAHAHA. ok i'm paranoid.





oh..e other 2 wisdom tooth is growing..how i dread their growth. hope they are not going to cause any pain. so i don have to go for operation. they are really scary.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

I got this sudden urge to pen down my dreams, or what i've dreamt quite recently.





Recently, i dreamt of her again. Creepy? Yes, super creepy. It has been quite long since i've met her, or even talk to her. To dream of her or to see her in my dream shock me quite alot.





Anyway it was quite a stupid dream. E setting was my school. To be more precise, i saw her outside the school hall. haha. She was looking for someone, very urgently. I walked towards her but she gave me a black face. Yet i proceed on to help her to look for the person she was looking for (but in my dream i don even know who it was). Then some other guys join in. I never get to see their faces, it was blurred. Then all of a sudden she jus walk down the steps from the side of the hall. At first i did not care and i started to wander around the hall, trying to do something. But anxiety begin to set in. I was nervous and scared that i can't find her, so i started running down the steps to look for her. But after awhile, i still couldn't find her n i gave up. E last time i saw her was running down e steps walking off with someone else(e face also blur). n soon my alarm rang n i woke up.





ahha..was surprise by how i felt. It has been quite long since tt incident nv did i know i will feel it again. Stramge how e brain can conjure up such memories and feelings u tot u have long forgotten. It was strange at first, but soon u remembered where and when u felt them before. Soon they became all too familiar.





E dream somehow has stirred up quite abit of me. haha. didn't knew it had such an impact, but it does. Anyway hope everything will subside again. Hope flashback of the dream would stop. it is bad. all too bad. i don wan to feel tt way again. hope it will all go away.