woo!! update update! Today is yet another boring n lazy day for me.



Feeling pretty high now. haha. n i have no idea why. maybe it is the effect of the weather. I"M BURNING HOT!! pssssttt!!



Went to run with encik n his family. Kinda awkward. whaha..n both o us got cheated. we tot we ran abt 10km but it turns out that it is only 7km. pzzzt. but we manage to recce another route that is 11km long. woot!! run like mad. hahah.



lalalal. n i got my hair cut!! cheap cheap!! but i think it looks ok (: haha. n i'm broke again. YESS!!! only 9 days after pay day n i'm left with 28. WOOHOO!! i'm a survivor!!!!



ok..i'm officially crazy when typing this entry.all thx to e sun ne wind. It blew my mind away n left me burning hottt!

I'm feeling down. But i'm not emo-ing. I just feel down and moody. Maybe i'm worrying too much?

Got a letter from SMU yest. Well, as expected i got rejected. haha. Not suprising, but now i'm even more worried for my NTU n NUS application. I really hope i can get into NUS. hai..yes i'm back into worrying again.

Wahah! Today was a great day!!! WOOT! So happy (:



Had my jc class gathering. It was a huge success. Many of them turn up. Let's see..abt 13 out of 20? Esp when we haven seen each other for a long time. Went to swensens for gathering. YES...swensens again..cos i jus realised the Sakura outlet at tpy isn't halal n i wanted to go to botak jones..but it wasn't halal as well. pzzzt lor.



Anyway after tt went to City Link HMV n got my michael jackson album :) Well, even though i don't really like him now he was still once my idol PLUS!! the disc was super cheap. HAHA! Considering the fact tt it was a compilations of his songs since young! A total of 38 songs for $15!! WORTH IT MAN!!



Also did CD hunting for sephine for her bf. haha. Went to City Link Hmv then after tt to e ear depot at marina sq. After hunting for her cds, she went to meet her bf n i met up with shin jia, jia wei n jansen for food hunting!!



Walked from marina sq to bugis. On the way we had toast bread + coffee. Next was beef noodles!!! YUMMY!!!! The meatballs were really gd! As we walk down e road we went to bugis village to have xiao long bao!!! E xiao long baos were not bad. Quite nice. Next was duck rice n noodles. haha. by tt time i was feeling quite full already.but we pushed on and went for desserts!!! YES!n i had my fav yang zi gan lu!! WOOT!! n e last course for the day was soya beancurd with a cup of soya bean n 1 fried dough! SHOIK SHOIK SHOIK!!
Was jus eating the whle day away. HAHA



Weee..jus did a prank call to leon. HWHAHA!! told him i'll disturb him already. WHAHAH!!

ROAR!! hai..this is e 1st time i'm feeling moody the WHOLE DAY!! n it started since last night.



I have nv been in such a state b4. such moodiness..such restlessness. Maybe cos i worry too much? I jus couldn't help but to worry. This is me. But why can't i deal with it now?



This is bad..this is bad. What is happening?? ROAR!!!

hur hur hur..in end i overslept and miss the timing for my run. Pzzt. aha



Yest went to watch ironman with ah lee, leon, shawn, jj, quansheng, invi woman n dr doom. HHAHA! IRONMAN IS A GREAT MOVIE!! haha. Love it! Also celebrated ah lee's birthday yest. haha.



N i spent toooo much yest. HAHAHA. Was eating from e moment i see leon till i go home. pzzztt. met him at 11..then went bk to eat. then after tt went to gelare to have ice-cream waffle n tcc to have coffee. HAHA. n we bought chocs. (: hahaha..jus eat e whole day. Then ask shawn to meet us early n went to have dinner. HAHA. eat eat eat non-stop for e whole day. n all my money jus disappear. AHHAHA. BROKE!!



Very happy now but brain is very disorientated. ahhaha. so this is a very messy n not very reading frenly post. AHHA. pzzztt. (:

Alright..in the end i still went to run. haha. But this time not alone. I ran with ah lee! I was pondering whether i should run or not, but ah lee made the decision for me by asking me out to run. (:



So i ran 6km and he ran abt 5km. haha. Lucky my legs didn't hurt and my pace was much slower than the Saturday. But it was a gd run. haha. I enjoyed it alot.



Hmmm..having mixed feelings now. Doesn't really wanna go back camp cos i fear for what might happened next. Hope nothing bad will happen. pzzzt. But at e same time i find comfort in my friends whom i know will be there to support me in case any bad stuff do happen. ahha. Ok all these sounds kind of scary.



I realise everytime i go out..i get even more broke. Which is bad. And pay isn't coming in until the 10th. Wonder how i'm going to survive with jus 80 plus on 2 gatherings. hur hur hur..quote aunty ng " eat bread and drink mineral water" N " u haven't been this broke since sec sch days" HAHA! n i told her i feel young being broke. HAHAHA. Well, she thinks i'm half-crazy already.



YES! One piece of gd news though, govt is giving us 100 bonus! (: How i love the govt. Always so timely. Jus when i needed e money most. haha. n IRONMAN n BATMAN is showing soon! So going to catch it! WEEEEE..



Ok. time to go now. Shall update when i'm back. If i get to that is.

weeeeeee...very high in the morning liao. whahahha



I'm super lazy today! Was suppose to go run in e morning, but i didn't. Cos i woke up at 5 in the morning. I'm not that crazy to go run so early. So i force myself back to sleep and end up waking at 10 plus.



Today is book-in day as well. hur hur hur...not looking forward for it actually. Kinda funny in a way. Use to love to go back camps b4 all the overseas trip, but now i jus dread going back camp. HAHA. Well, at least i still have my buddies to accompany me. haha.



hohoho..n i'm super broke. pzzzt. yes yes..no $$$. kinda nice feeling. Somehow. N something embarrassing happened to me yest and i've got to treat shawn n leon drinks. ROAR..all thx to the stupid bet. haha. but well it is ok. HAHA. i'm happy treating them. HAHA. like seeing 2 little kids getting candies form the candy store. HAHA.



Lately, mum n dad has been a little weird. haha. Apparently my overseas phone bill hit 160++ and they didn't chide me! In fact there were rather calm n seem to be ok with it. HAHA. Also, i showed my parents the rest of the money that ididn't spent both of them ask me why i didn't spend it all. I was SHOCK! Seriously. They complain abt my spending in Thailand so i cut down in Taiwan and now they ask me why i didn't spens it all. HAHA.



Not only that, my father ask me to change back the NT to Sing dollar n ask me to keep it and spend it. hahaa. wat a right timing! When i'm broke. But well i told mum it was suppose to be for the phone bills. haha. I'll see how things go...heheh..cos i already spent abt $20 of it already. HEHEHEHE.



WEEe..n yest bought an album with dasen. Both of us shared the album THE BEATLES! haha. Few days back i also bought QUEEN greatest hits collection 1,2 n 3 for the price of $30!! WOOT!! super happy (: haha.



ok..think i better go now. weeee..eating my brunch. haha. so i won spend so much later also. HAHAA.

Ok, friendster lied to me.



You will wake up with a lot of high energy coursing through your body this morning, which will go a long way toward fueling some high productivity! This is a great day to tackle that project you've been putting off for so long -- cleaning the garage, organizing your office, balancing your checkbook, cleaning out the refrigerator. The things that you were dreading will suddenly be enjoyable for you, today, so make the most of it. Dig in. You'll enjoy a great sense of accomplishment.



This is taken from e horoscope section. haha. let me see how it actually work so far for me.



This morning i did woke up with a lot of high energy, but is PAINFUL engery. Went to the toilet to ls AGAIN. HAHAH.



After ls, i've decided to go for a run, n e run was quite terrible. My shin hurts like hell n my stamina has dropped. It was a gd run at all and it wasn't very productive. Cos now i feel nothing.



But one thing gd abt the run was that it made me feel better. Cos i was feeling quite moody before and during the run. Now i feel much better. hhaha.

WEE!!! 2nd update for the day. haha.



YES!! I MANAGE TO FIND BACK MY GOD OF WAR!!! HURRAY!!!!! whaha..so dumb of me. i actually did save it, but it was in some other folder. weee..



So now i have both crisis core and god of war in my psp. WOOTS!! They're going to accompany me in taiwan. haha. BUT BUT BUT!! i still wan tekken in my psp and also monster hunter. haha. n sooo..i shall go taiwan n get myself another memory card. WEEE..hope it is cheaper. haha.



Flying off tonight liao..n i'm still packing my bag. lalalala..n i think i'll post another entry tonight b4 i fly. hahha. 3 updates in a row!! n don't worry..today is a happy day!! weee..not like e other time. WHAHAHA.



ok..shall go pack my bag first..hahaha

Alright, this shall be a long update before i fly off to taiwan tonight where this blog will be left here collecting dust as usual. haha.





Went out with leon and shawn again yest. haha. My 2 best bastard buddies. Weee..haha.went to town again to shop. In the end spend another $50 at Espirit. WAhaha! Both me and shawn bought a polo tee. While leon went to river island and got himself a tee-shirt.




Yest went from orchard to city hall to suntec to raffles city. hahaa. My legs almost gave up on me, cos i ran abt 6 to 7 km in e morning. hahaha. Saw quite a few friends at town :). Quite happy to see them cos very long nv see them liao. HAHA.




After shopping went home for dinner and something retarded happened. haha. I was stoning in the train listening to songs and when the train stopped at yishun, i didn't alight. I stare at e sign 'Yishun' and watch the door close right in front of my face. 5s later i started to laugh at myself n realized that i didn't alight. SO RETARDED. haha. So in order not to let pple think i'm crazy (cos i was laughing at myself) i took my hp out and started to sms. hahhaa. Luckily, when i reached sembawang the other train arrived. haha. I quickly dashed into the train. hahahaha.



Later at night, karma was brought unto me on my psp. I couldn't put crisis core into my psp and after that i reformat my memory stick without saving my God Of War. SOOOO..last night i was devastated. I couldn't put crisis core AND i lost my God of War. tt is the last thing i need man. Reformat my memory stick twice, restart my com and it still didn't work. ROAR!! BUT!! BUT!! luckily for me, karma only lasted for last night. weeee..cos this morning which is jus now i tried putting crisis core in and it works!!! WEEEE!!! so my memory stick is ok now. wahhaa..or i think it is.



Anyway got a call from zk last night. Saw my phone vibrating and saw his name i didn't feel like picking it up. haha. Told leon over msn he called me..even leon say don pick up. HAHA! Then after that he sms me to ask me to call him. Was quite worried cos i scared zk might commit suicide. WAHHA! So in e end i call him back.I was shaking when i called him..it was tt bad. In e end he asked me about the forecast abt the next few months. Also updated me on the plans where he decide to move in together with dragon. Was quite speechless lar..didn't know quite what to say. hahha.



Wah..then he said something made me feel so guilty. hahaha. This is bad man. lalala. anyway still i hope he stop bothering me with his him n dragon stuff. HAHA. kinda have enough of it liao. Feels like everyone is asking me for details and pressuring me to help him. BUT!! BUT!!! What else can i do? Spoke to him, accompanied him and got black face from him..see liao also sian lor..wahhahaha..but well. i feel that i've did wat i can do and i've did enough. the rest is up to him.



I'm so excited!!! Tonight flying off liao. Whahaha..so fun and exciting. WEEEEE...can't wait for R&R in taiwan! hahaha..shopping..shopping..shopping..eating..eating..free dinner..weeee!!

woohoo!!! today is a weekend!!



Wahah..i'm happy today :) Because i went swimming jus now. HAHA! N last night was a great night. hahaha.



Went to crash nina's course at nus. Forensic studies. Cool huh. Was expecting some gory case studies but last night they didn't have it. Well..still it was fun cos they invited a judge over. E judge is Justice Tay. Very humourous man. Kind of unexpected for a judge. haha. Well we always have this idea or this stereotype that judges are boring and stern and cold. haha. Guess we are all so wrong.



After the lecture went back with huisi's fren who actually happens to be my senior in my sec sch. Saw her b4 in sch but she say she don remember seeing me. HAHA. Well, i guess tt is a gd thing. WHAHHA!



Only know her name when i reached yishun. WHAHHa! kinda dumb i know. hhaha. Well..pretty gals make boy fumble and tumble and go all blank in e mind. HAHA. Smitten by her smile. HAHA. cos she really has a great smile. Or in my point of view. Let's hope i get into NUS FASS!! So she can be my senior! hahaha.

I'm feeling kinda neither here nor there. Not happy or sad. Not angry or calm.



But i'm thinking which part of the story they told me is the truth or which part is e lie. I don't know whose words to believe anymore. Is like A is telling me this and B is telling me e other.



So what am i suppose to do? All i know is that i'm avoiding them both and lying to both of them at e same time. Or i shld say i feed them with false information. HAHA! Bet they're bitching or complaining abt me but i don't really care. At least i'm worth mentioning. WAHHA!



Well, but i do feel kind of guilty for givin them the cold shoulders. Cos if A is not there, B will have no friends left. And technically speaking i shld be his friend. Wahhaha..but even i'm giving him cold shoulders. Then he'll be all alone. N i definitely will feel guilty. So what shld i do? That is why i'm feeling neither here nor there today. Caught in a dilemma.



Why am i always facing such kuku situations. WHY WHY WHY??? haha. gd thing i have great frens ard to support my decisions n listen to me whine..if not i think i most prob go crazy halfway. haha.

hoho..another update.



Yest was fun. really.



Went to sakura international buffet at orchard. Seriously..it wasn't worth the money. The food was rather horrible. It was kinda disappointing. haha. Left some feedbacks for them. Guess they gonna hate me. WAHAHA.



After lunch went to meet meng fei, leon n shawn! Whaha..went to watch movie n shopping. Leon bought a $138 buffaloo jeans!!! N i tried on one..i think the price is from $188 to $208. WAHHAA..so tempting..n it is sooooooo ex. Leon told me to save up n get it. HWHAHA. their jeans super comfy. hmmm..maybe get it in june?? or july??



Was supposed to look for shirt b4 i leave for taiwan..but somehow i didn't buy anything and leon ended up spending more than me. WHAHHA.



N more issues coming up. Or i shld say i foresee more issues. lalala..but no worries, I'll deal with it as it comes. WAHAHA.



I feel quite free and happy now. AHAH. kinda missed the feeling. Esp since the thai incident. HORRIBLE!! Make me mood swing like nobody's business. It affected alot of pple. Hope everyone is ok now. WHHAHA.

haha. jus got this sudden urge to blog again.



i m sad. or i think i am. yes, i'm postive i m sad.



for tonnes of reason. n some i don't even know.



going tp have supper tonight with ah lee. but redbull is tagging along. not really looking forward for it.



last thing i need is for tml to cock up. which i got e feeling tt it might. oh..boo!



still i'm looking forward for tml! buffet, movie, shopping n great companion from noon till night. nothing to complain abt.



*note: it's morning i'm afraid. well..it's custom isn't it n i shldn't run away from it. sometimes i jus hate traditions n custom. It pulls u down n make u sacrifice for things u wldn't wan to.

oh no. jus what is exactly going on within me right now? hai..so messy right now. Everything is like a whirlpool. It is too intense for me to go reason it out within myself.



ARRGGH!!! This is not right!! Maybe there is too much envy. How i hate it n love it. Everything seems so wrong yet right.



I cannot allow e same thing to happen to me. To prevent it from happening, i must control it.



If only i could say this " Dear Lord, pls give me strength."

A super super gd emo song.



DAMIEN RICE - Cheers Darlin



Cheers darlin'

Here's to you and your lover boy

Cheers darlin'

I got years to wait around for you

Cheers darlin'

I've got your wedding bells in my ear

Cheers darlin'

You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away



And I die when you mention his name

And I lied, I should have kissed you

When we were running the reins



What am I darlin'?

A whisper in your ear?

A piece of your cake?

What am I, darlin?

The boy you can fear?

Or your biggest mistake?



Cheers darlin'

Here's to you and your lover man

Cheers darlin'

I just hang around and eat from a can

Cheers darlin'

I got a ribbon of green on my guitar

Cheers darlin'

I got a beauty queen

To sit not very far from here



I die when he comes around

To take you home

I'm too shy

I should have kissed you when we were alone



What am I darlin'?

A whisper in your ear?

A piece of your cake?

What am I, darlin?

The boy you can fear?

Or your biggest mistake?



Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?

I got years to wait...

sometimes..i feel very out of place..no matter who i'm with, no matter where i m. i feel lost and lonely. i'm all alone in a dark dark land. and there's no one out there to help me..except for myself.




No one.

wahahh!! finally i've uploaded this picture. look at it closely n u'll see e error!! HAHHA..so funny. aunty ber spotted it under a block, beside a kopitiam where we were having lunch after our swim. HAHA. ask her to take it n send it to me. HAHA.










if onlyuknowhowifeel..
butudon't
nhowamisupposetosayit
whenuhavesomeoneinurheart??

A fren told me this :

"True Frenz no matter how far we are apart, in our hearts we know we are still true frenz"

It is a bad week and i do not wish to elaborate more. Because i'm afraid tt the more i start to say all over again, the emo i'll get again. I'm trying hard to rid off this emo feeling but it is hard. So maybe trying to come here n type some stuff might jus help.



I'm kinda slapping my own face right? Saying tt i'm not going to say much abt what happened, yet still saying coming here to type some stuff to try n de-emo myself.



Maybe i'm jus feeling fustrated at e HQ and at myself. The HQ definitely has some fucked-up pple to disgust u and make u pissed off. I'm angry at myself for making myself feel so much abt it. Like as if i'm totally involved in it. I think i'm emotionally too attached to what has happened.



Managed to get some comfort from the comments aunty ng gave. It was really useful. Made me feel slightly more relieved. Now all tt i'm angry and worried is abt the time. I'm afraid tt it will take too long and they will take some actions, giving him post or appointment that he shouldn't hold and thus hurting him and making him lose confidence as well as emo-ing over it.



Hate to see or envision any of my fren being like tt. It breaks ur heart like as if their ur own child. Also hate pple tt make fun of my frens or making nasty comments when he is down.



ARRRGH!!!!!!!!!!! LET THE STEAM OF!! PSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Ok, at least it does helped a little.



Sometimes a little is all i need to make myself feel better.

Sadness and anger ruled over me today. I think i have the slightest idea why. Same old people, same old problems.

wooo..so long nv update. abt a month. kinda bored now so came over here to blog abit but i have no idea on what to blog. Everytime when i wanna blog, i can't. cos the com is bein used. now when e com is free i have nothig to blog abt. BORING~~

I think a**y is making me stupid. Abt a week ago my fren asked me a simple math question n i couldn't give a logical ans to him. Somehow while i was reading the question and trying to come up with a logical reasoning my brain starting to object very violently. I couldn't think properly at all. So much for telling us to use our brains...i think it is degrading our brains. Maybe we are trained to have muscles n no brains. AHHA. Whatever i'm ranting rubbish.

Just had this sudden urge to blog. To come and see this empty space where it will be filled by words and letters in no time. But i do not know what to write or say. Jus had this sudden feeling of loneliness loomed over me. Lonely n bored. Or was it the fact tt i cannot differentiate loneliness and boredom? ok..i'm starting to rumble off again.



anyway some randomness.


I WANT A NEW BAG!


I WANT A NEW SET OF HAIR. haha. yes i still don like my hair now. or maybe it is me.


I DON WAN TO BE PLAGUE BY FLU, SORE THROAT AND COUGH!


I WANT TO FLY AWAY TO SOMEHWERE NICE!


I WANT TO SLEEP ALL I WANT AND DO NOTHING.



There seems to be too much i wan. i'm too greedy. i hate politics and having the feeling that i need to wayang to be gd. SHIT this stuff. **** is a fucked up place.

All of a sudden i jus feel so lonely, so angry and so tired. Tired of hearing them cry, tired of seeing my parents getting so worked up, tired of going home and yet it doesn't feels like homw at all. Tired of so many things. Like i've told someone, sometimes i wld rather stay in camp then to go home. At least in camp there is more peace then at home. at least in camp i have frens whom i can talk to. At least in camp, maybe i feel abit happier.



Now all of a sudden i feel that i can talk to no one. Because no one wans to listen to me whine abt e same old stuff everytime. Complain abt every single thing that i don't like and i also feel that i can't jus tok to anyone. Also, i feel that maybe all these are jus childish feelings of myself. Maybe i'm not mature enough, so if i tell anyone they wld jus think that i'm jus childish.



So since i can't talk to anyone, i might as well tell it to my blog. For in case, when i can't hold e silence any longer i do not know what i'll do or say. Maybe i'll just turn crazy or maybe i'll jus commit suicide. See, foolish thoughts.



I'm just sick n tired.

Sometimes army can be a very scary place. A slip of tongue can costs u ur whole future. And obviously sometimes u shld just shut ur mouth.



That is what i've learned today. My tongue just slipped. I was lucky enough not to get my ass burnt. Feeling rather lousy and depressed. Becos pple will definitely think diff of me now and it might be very negatively. N i hate it.



ARRGHHH..n i feel abit awkward as well. Feel abit hard facing my boss. ARRRGH!! think it will take some time to get rid off this feeling. hai..hope no ill feeling will be done. Well, there are worst cases than mine. ok, even though saying that does not cheer me up any bit.



BOOO!!!! hope everything will be better soon!!!



Ren yi shi feng ping lang jing


Tui yi bu hai guo tian kong

Somehow this period of time feels very weird. I don feel like who i am anymore. There seems to be alot of thigs going on. Like the people ard me. At the beginning i put up a barrier btwn mw n them cos i do not know hwo they are. Even as time passes sometimes the barrier is still being formed.



Sometimes, I just feel that i'm being tested. Being judged. Everyday, by different pple. And the test isn't easy, it isn't the normal test. The test is me myself. I have to deal with topics like self-esteem, confidence level, my skills, ability to adapt well, my wayang-ness, my initiative, my eloquence n also my fashion sense. I may have left out some others but more or less it is this few topics. I guessed i fair quite low. Seriously.



Sometimes i just wanna give away my post or just let my upperstudy continue doing it. Despite the fact that, many times he have told me he dislike being e runner or he is sick n tired of it, i think he is jus lying subconsciously. NOTE, i say subconsciously. Cos from what i observed, he isn't. He likes the attention, the recognition. Sometimes he is just so gd and when i stand beside him i feel so lousy, like i shldn't even be his successor. Well, obviously there is also someone else he wld like to be his understudy. I know for sure it is definitely not me.



Sometimes i really wonder, WHY ME? Why can't my superior, they chose themselves? Maybe it wld have been better. Maybe now, i'm not even having the post now. Maybe my life now wld be simpler n easier.



The only thing that really keep me going is that i know i'm not the only one and i'm glad that i have pple who have been encouraging me n supporting me. It great to have frens like them.

Woot finally found e time to update. But it seems that i've actually have no idea on what to blog abt. Anyway next week will be a busy week. haha. N i'm so angry cos i cldn't get e shirt i wanted! BOO! yes..i think i need to get a new belt, wallet, shirt, maybe a few other pants n new smell! haha. N all tt cost money. n i'm currently broke n i'm still over-spending on food!!



some how it seems tt going into main body is making me even poorer. AHHA. spending even more than i shld. Well, running out of words n ideas for this entry. Ohh..n i did something sinful this week. HAHA. i sort of betrayed my sis, but in a gd way. Or at least i think it is gd. hahaha. Anyway i guess she wldn't know. haha. I'll post more next time!

Still wondering if i'm really e most suitable candidate for the job. Well, this also means i've no confidence in myself n i myself am doubting if i can meet up to such high expectations and doubting my own capabilities. IF pple trust me and acknowledge my effort and hard work and that is why they gave me e current job i shld be sure of myself as well right?



Hai..i'm still searching for proper answers to assure myself. Everyday seems so challenging.



Anyway was suppose to visit the bank today but i didn't. BOO! has pushed my plan even further. Was jus thinking a moment ago why my family is just so diff from the other families ard. So many examples to cite but i think i shldn't. Who knows it might jus make me resent my family, which is a bad thing. haha. but i guess i wouldn't want to do that. I think i sort of understand what sis is saying now. I feel the pain she is feeling. But what to do? The only answer or explanation i was given is time. Yes, TIME.

Finally!! i'm updating my blog after sooooooooo long. YES!!! 2 more weeks n my training course gonna end!! YES!! they cut it short due to manpower problem. hahahha. This coming week is going to be a very hectic n tough week. N i'm dreading it. haha.



N!! i'm spending sooooo much this month also!! been to party world n k-box to sing n destress!! haha. so shoik!! then went to buy a pair of jeans from bod.bodynits at only $42!! all their bottoms only $42, cos they having sales. n e price of e jeans was originally $83.90. haha. so i paid only 1/2 price! so shoik to spend $$. haha. Which means i'm also broke. But tt didn't stop me from watching HAIRSPRAY today! the show is damn gd! very nice. Worth e $$. haha.



Can't wait for this week to be over. Everything shld be easier by then i guess. 15 Sept. I'm looking forward for this day!

ARGH!!! I'm now having e depression mood again!!! YES!! AGAIn!!! n i hate it! jus can't seem to find something nice to lok forward to. Booking in tml morning. e post activity after e half marathon has been a truly waste of $$ n my time. It wasn't fun at all. It brought my mood down!!!! RARR!!!! boobooboo!!

9 more weeks!

Yes!!! I've completed 5 weeks of training! N this coming mon marks the end of my first phase of AIT! This is a super fast passing week. Almost everyday we are outfield having training.



As usual, donkey is being super irritating. Trying to lead and yet his leading skills really sux! He doesn't know how to sacrifice or to take the initiative as a leader yet he is able to boss pple ard to do such things. Yes, leaders delegate jobs to pple, not to boss pple ard. Moreover, there wasn't even any job assigned to him.



He is getting on everyone's nerves. Part of me wans to win him in every possible way so as to tell him that there is someone better ard u, u are notas gd as the one that u think u are. Yet part of me jus wan to shut him from my system. To disregard his existence. Well, of course it feels great to see his annoyed expression when i was given the post he wanted so much and also the equipment i could use or at least hold on to for a longer time compared to him.



Anyway other than donkey someone else is also very irritating. Maybe he is enforcing or given orders to enforce such rules but i still feel that he is really a huge egoistic monster tt is super rigid. Also a little dumb to use such a term " reasonably unreasonable ". Makes my jaw drop onto the ground with a loud thud.



Ok enough of them. NDP is coming soon! 2 more weeks!!! But i guess i'll be missing it. YES!! E whole performance! cos of booking in. ARGH!! SO FUSTRATING!! HOW I WISH I COULD WATCH THE SHOW!! hmm..but nothing is confirmed right? all these are speculations. hahaha.



I also wanna watch the simpsons, transformers n read the harry potter book 7 at the same time!!!! SO much i wanna do, but so limited amt of time to do them.

OK! it has been a month since i've last updated this blog. So far everything is still ok. Finishing my phase 1 of my course soon. There were so many things i want to say e previous time or yest, but it jus seems tt i've forgotten abt it. Well, what to say now? hahhaa. lost for words. Just hope this week pass quick enough too.

Well, all is fine now. ahaha. Of course with much help from my family. There are the ones that could really pull u up when you are really really very down. Of course, i can't forget my frens either who have been encouraging me. haha. Though it may sounds like something major happened, all seems so tiny now. Yeah! i'm once again a happy man! haha.

It is hard to describe my feelings now. Well, it is more on e negative side. More of disappointment n sadness. Didn't understand why i get tt posting. Somehow i took it as a form of insult. I find it hard to take it positively despite all e encouragements n concerns my frens gave me. I could only appear to look cheerful or let them feel i'm ok, but deep down i know there is still this aching feeling. A feeling so hard to get rid of.



But who knows, maybe i might grow to like it. And as far as i know i'm not e only one. Yet, i still can't settle myself down. It is so hard. So very hard. How i wish i cld be with e rest as well, n how i remember i use to daze abt e future i might have. But now in an instant, they're gone. PUFF! just like tt. so demoralising, how unmotivative and maybe a disgrace as well.



Maybe i've take it too hard, too personal. But there is no other way i can make myself feel better. Even esp after i heard my dad's rxn. Maybe all this is just bullshit. The system is jus so wierd and unpredictable. It is in accurate i wld say. Or maybe i thought too highly of myself. Whatever e reasons are, there is no way i can change anything, except of how i'm going to enjoy my future. It will be hard, but i'm willing to try. It is jus a short term isn't. Jus a short term.

It is always great to be back to civilisation compare to staying in field. Field camp is finally over. Well it is a great experience to be out there in e field. Slepping in e field, digging trench and learning all sorts of things such as how u react in e forest if u were atack by an enemy. All very interesting and exciting n fresh. All are very new to me.




Of course not only these events are enjoyable n unforgettable but also tt i didn't brush my teeth for 5 days, bath for less than 5 mins on e 4th day and got cuts while digging e shellscrape for 5 hrs. Also shitting side by side with uur frens. haha. All these are fun n unforgettable.




All in all field camp is generally fun, but tiring n really can irritates e hell out of pple. haha. shan't elaborate more. too lazy.




As for today i went to beach road with raphael to get some items. Then went to orchard to meet amos, jihad, nicholas and ka siang for late lunch/early dinner. Then went to shop ard orchard. Me n raphael wanted to try all e branded clothes n after tt jus leave w/o buying them. HAhHA. but unfortunately we didn't do tt. haha. had a great day today outside hanging ard.




Booking in tml at 1910 to 1925. Yours truly is once again tired n needs rest. haha. GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

YES PPLE! I"M BACK!! n i tot i would abondon this blog for good.haha. Because i don not have to mood to blog now. But then for some unknown reason n unknown force i came here in e end.




I'm very drowsy noe because i took my medicine a few hours ago. Cough syrup tt is. Been sick in tekong. Tt was e 2nd week i guess. My company (Leopard!) suddenly seemed to have an outburst of pple getting flu, cough n sore throat. I was unlucky enough to be one of them.



E 18 days of confinement/adjustment period is relatively ok. Sgts are still very nice even though we got fuck by Sgt Jihad already. But i guess tt was only small case. Food is relatively ok. PPle are generally nice as well. Even though there are some buggers ard. Overall i think my section is e best. MUWHAHAHHAHAA.



Anyway was being appointed as e armskote 2ndIC. e last post i wld ever wanna get. Worse then being e armskote IC. tsk. But i always enjoy sseing pple sending arms back. haha. cos they will sign from e book n my job is officially gone! hahah. but well had to stick to this bloody appointment for another 6 weeks. Hope no one else get fuck anymore. Including me.



The next book in will be 2nd of May. Will be going to SDC first before heading back to the super sunny small island. Whjile i was there initially i was thinking if there was a tsunami, Tekong will definitely sink. haha. But lets all pray to all e god tt such thing will nv happen.



Having field camp when i booking in after 2 days. Hope everything will be alright n smooth. Definitely not looking forward for it. E only thing tt excite me is e stars tt i'll get to see at night. Other than tt, nothing else does.



Ok tt's all folks for now. Yours truly needs rest. hahaha.

OK! tml is e day where i get my head shaved n get confined for 2 weeks n learn lots n lots of new things!



Another chapter of my life begins tml. A new beginning, a new story. Let's hope it will be exciting for e rest of e story! Lots of surprise, good surpise. haha. Also this blog will then be ignored n left to collect dust until yours truly comes back home n clean it.



Till then, take care everyone! esp to those who have been reading my blog! n my family, frens blah blah blah. haha.



Ciao!


Adios!


Bye!

Zai(4) Jian(4)!



Cheers!

4 more days! had a so called farewell dinner on wed at ah eu's hse. then today met up with kat n ng for prata session. so fast! 4 more days. e waiting is killing me. excited n nervous. Wondering how e pple will be like in there. Frenly, nice, fun-going, crazy, funny? or bossy, irritating, selfish, fierce n scary kind. hahaha. anyway whatever lar.

HAHA. this is so unexpected of me. Blogging at such an hr. 2.10A.M! still waiting for my mp3 to be charged. rather irritated. haha. it has been 2hrs!!!! n it has not finish charging.



Finally went to e temple n pray!!!! then went to buy 4D. haha. bought 5678. e no. tt was in e ang bao. SO SUAY LOR!!! NV WIN!!!!! got 2 pairs of no. all jus lack of 1 no. If only i got those 2 no. i can smell e $$$$$. hahahaa.



14 more days to NS


5 more to Ah eu's birthday


22 more days to brt's birthday

Yeah finally managed to get my ass out today! haha. thx to sylvester, who ask me out to go for jogging. Turns out we went to the gym instead. haha. ran e treadmill for 20 mins n completed abt 3.1+km. then proceed to use e machines. Saw one of my junior there. yeah! at least i exercised today! i'm so happy!

Been having weird dreams lately. Even U appeared in my dream. Scary. Met so many old friends in my dream. haha. somewhat like a mini reunion in my dream.



yeah! my parents are finally coming back today!! Well no more late-night cookings. haha. Boo to that. BUT!! BUT!! at least there is mum's cooking everyday. Cos i know my cooking can nv be on par with her right now. But maybe in 10 years time i will win her! haha. crappy. My sis even complained abt e egg i cook. Says it got e smell but not e taste. Of course i know. i'm an amatuer. hahahaha. not like my mum n dad. They're e pro. haha.



I'm panicking again becos i haven been training hard for the past few weeks. Actualy i haven been training at all. except for e sit-ups. HAHAHA. always woke up late. someone pls drag me out of my cosy litte bed n tie me to the treadmill or kidnapped me to the stadium. But i know i'll run tml! or at least i would. haha.



N i wan to go to sentosa AGAIN! yes. AGAIN! hahah. jus went recently with my classmates. Fun. waiting for pics! haha. n SEPHINE IF U ARE READING THIS, PLS UPLOAD E PICS ASAP!! hahaha. THX!



Ok! tt all's!



8 days to eunice's birthday!


16 days to NS!


24 days to Ber's birthday!

I had a fun day yest! Went to sentosa with my classmates. ahha. Even though there were only 5 of us. Bought frisbee n play on shore n in e sea. Had a fun time yest. ahha. We even dig a super big trench. n it is abt half a thigh deep. haha. me n yat yan we buried in it. In e end shin jia was also buried.ahah.



After tt went to harbourfront to look for ah yo, my assistant chef when i use to work at sakae. She told me lots of things. Some were very sad. I wonder y e working world is such a cruel place. How can they bully 2 old ladies! What is wrong with these pple!!!!! they shld be chopped off!!! Cursed them! Hope when these evil pple work, they fall n slip in e kitchen, knock their head on e floor n e knife fell from e counter n stab them. Evil pple!!!

haha! i'm so-called finally cooking my first full course meal!!! 3 cheers for e wonderful sijie! YES! e next iron chef in e family. HAHA.



parents are still away at thai n still visiting more n more temples. i think my mum is super tired. everytime i call her, she say she is in e bus sleeping. HAHA.



let's hope e meal will taste gd. After all this is my first time. haha. yeah..lost my virginity on cooking my first full course meal jus like tt. haha. Like i've said i'm going to be e next iron chef in my family!! but there is still a super long way to go.



i think i can take over my mum when she comes back. I'M THE NEW MUM FOR MY FAMILY!! haha. i cook, do laundry, pray, prepare for e prayers, go market, sweep floor, mop floor. HAHAHA. i think i siao liao. lalla. WOOH!!



ok..tt's all back to cooking!!!

I'm bored n i'm feeling very bottled up. Lots of emotions or feelings mixing n running ard in me. I'm confused n i'm stressed ( i donnoe y either ). I'm also lost. What to do, what to choose n what will happen?



It is going to be a terrible long 9 days. i miss my parents. BOO!

Headache!

It is such a pain in e ass to plan a gathering when noone bothers to reply. Now i don't even know how many pple are going. I feel like i'm dealing with ghost. I've no idea where to settle a place for dinner! whatever choices given, negative feedbacks are always given. Now u have to consider the budget, e location, e smell, e size of e shop n stuff. ANNOYING! it is easier to plan an event when u are at least given a budget n est no. of pple arriving.



Seriously troublesome. BOOOOO!!!!!!

Tiltles that do not match

I've jus realised for some of e post i've made e title doesn't really match the entry. Y? becos i always digressed from my original topic if not i actually deleted what i wanted to say originally if not it wld be e case where i forgot what i wanted to say initially. tada! tt is y some titles doesn't match e post. haha.

the run-away me

My parents are going to thailand AGAIN! i think this is e 3rd time they're going again? haha. n this is e longest period they will be away from home! BOOS! n YEAHS!!! haha.



But of course their safety shall comes first even b4 my enjoyment of a short total freedom period.



I'll pray to tao peh gong everyday. During morning and at night!



For now..it is BOO to house chores! n YEAH!! to more late night pratas!!!

A HUGE RELIEF!!!! But still it can't be compared wih e feeling 2 years back. This time i was rather numb. Now i'm gonna attack every course i can enter! i'm hopeful abt e outcome!

e final decision!

OK! Manage to get ah heng to call leena ant e outlet i wan to get transferred too. Apparently it didn't go too well. I didn't get posted to northpoint. BOOO! ok tt aside ah heng gave me a shock when he told me my pay will be increase to $7 if i go to tiong bahru. $7/hr!!!! can u imagine!! compare to my current $5.50 which seems sooooooooooooooooooooooooo little. haha. Well it seems like something was wrong with his ears. Cos he called back n say he made a mistake.



So after hearing out what he have told me AGAIN. i've decided to resign. NO MORE WORK FOR ME! 1 whole month of unemployment = no source of income = no $$ = no play! BOO! Well my dad say no point in working anymore if i'm still going to toa payoh. haha. i did a mental calculation for my transport fees n it really isn't worth it. haha. BOO TO SAKAE SUSHI! Let's pray tt all e aunties won get bullied by aunties from another outlet! if not they'll get it from me! hahha.



btw results releasing this fri. haha. still a little excited n nervous. well wish everyone all e best!! MAY WE ALL GET GD RESULTS!!!! PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY!

Curse blogger for not being able to published my last entry! BOO to blogger!








Well, finally saw e legendary leena tt everyone seemed to fear n panick at e sight of her and even when they hear her name. haha. She seems very motherly n nice. N i got transferred all e way to tao payoh after sembawang is closed. Y didn't i have e courage to tell her i wan NP!! ARRGH!! BOO TO ME! blimey. hope i can get ah heng to tell her tml. phsstt..let's pray!

too tired, to lazy, too much?

I think i'm not going to demand for extra pay afterall. E preparations are too much and i'm jus too tired n too lazy to chase for it anymore. Also it is hard to find free legal advice even though i know where to get tt service. But it will take a long time b4 i get anything done. So no point.



Work was peaceful today except when unknown pple like e constructors n e frog prince's dad, Uncle Foo, appeared. It made everyone nervous, stressful n uptight. haha. But i wasn't bothered. So what if i pissed him off, fire me lor. haha. Even loud-hailer ah heng had to shut up.



Finally i went to make e VIP card. But well it isn't tt useful anyway. Jus wanna have e feeling of owning it. HAHAH. It is rather useless anyway. discount = no discount. hahha. crappy craps. Making no sense at all.



My family is going to lao yusheng tml again!! I WANNA LAO!!! but i can't! tsk. due to work. so irritating. wonder y tml so many delivery orders. Someone shld bomb e call centre. hahaha. hopefully all in morning so i can clear them all n leave afternoon free! Let's pray tt no customers tml! all stay at home n celebrate everyone's birthday. OH! btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!!!

Money-minded

I was pondering awhile ago if i'm making a moutain out of a molehole (i think there is such phrase. haha. i now my english is not superb). Or simply saying i'm kaing abig fuss out of something.



For the past few days i was checking out on e labour law regarding double pay on a public holiday because i was told by my employer that on tues we will not be paid double. Instead we are being paid at the normal rate. So i went home n told my faimly n they said it is impossible so i went to check on e labour law.



So today i went back to op hoping tt mr nair could enlightened me on certain law matters but well he was busy so me n eunice went to look for mrs sasi instead. Well she told me i shld be getting my double pay. She even told me to look for free legal advice which is available at community centres.



When i reached home my sis told me i was making a big fuss out of everything. Then it dawned on me, am i really making a big fuss? well i'm super money-minded n i'm sure everyone else is. N i told my sis if it was only for a few hrs i don't mind. But i worked for 11hrs jus on tues so y can't i fight for what i deserved?



After tt i began to ponder deeper. Maybe bosses get richer n richer because they don pay what their employee deserves. Many aunties n waiter n waitress doesn't seem to care and take e employer's word for real when he claim tt there is no double on tues. Well, maybe i one super money-minded employee tt don believe his word.



Now i'm afraid i'll fall halfway while fighting for what i deserved. I'm afarid things get even more messier. Things are getting pretty messy at work now already, with all e hidden fights still going on n e struggles between co-workers. E worse is when u are inevitably involved.



I hate going to work now. I'm looking forward for this coming wednesday.



Someone pls tie me up so i can't go to work. I hate what is waiting for me tml.

Went back to op today! haha. so long since i've stepped back into op. e feeling was great! Met some teachers, but many were busy. Saw alot of new faces ard both teachers n students.



Chat with several teachers n all say e students are getting worse. More difficult to handle. Some say it has become a societal problem n not only within op but it is a common prob tt happens ard. I wonder if it is really tt. Do pple in raffles institution behave e same way too? haha.



Got my querries ansed my mrs sasi. She even taught me how to challenge them. haha. i'm quite ready but still need to tie up some loose ends n get ready my ammo b4 i start firing off. haha.



Even had lunch with ms chang. haha. she treated me! make me feel so paiseh n so coincidentally i saw april! my pri sch fren who happens to work in e cafe. haha. but nv chat much with her. also saw another pri sch fren but i guess he didn't recognise or remember me. haha.



got to report an extra hr earlier tml. ah heng say he got something to tell me. wonder what izzit. i got bad feeling, but hope it won come true.



ok tt's all for today's update!

i'm going to demand for the things i deserved!




haha. n i'm going prepared.




WATCH OUT!

It's finally CNY! but somehow e mood is not there. Every year it seems so routine and it has become less exciting and energetic. I remember when i was young i love CNY. well i do love CNY but somehow e feeling is diff. Sometimes it jus doesn't feel like CNY. weird. does it have to do with our mentality as we grow older? thinking tt CNY is jus e same old thing. i donnoe. Well anyway wishing everyone a happy PIGGY year! but may piglet(winnie e pooh) tt disgusting creature fall into a bottomless pit n nv climb up again. other piglets of other kind(not from winnie e pooh) will rise n stay cute n pinky n healthy!

I still feel guilty for bringing him in. Now he got injured i felt even worse. I even feel guilty for his injuries. BOO!

Work is getting more and more monotonous. It is always wipe e rice tray, make standby, prepare egg mixture, make chawamushi, wipe tables, cut papers, wait for order, prepare sushi for belts n blah blah.



Well at least i'm learning how to make better handrolls. Maybe i'm abit too ambitous but i wanna learn how to make maki n my next move will be C&C! i wanna go C&C n fry all e orders!! e tempura, gyoza, yasai n blah blah. learn how to make bento set n stuf. well by then i'll be e chef. HAHA. i know it is impossible, but still..i wanna fry e food! at least let me fry them! haha.

*yawns* i'm seriously lacking of sleep. haha. always can't wake up for work. clogged up to 51 hrs of work this week. e pain on my sole is killing me. e shoes i'm wearing is lousy. i wanna wear back my sport shoes. work is going to be hell next week. esp when aunty xiu ju is not ard n yoyo will be at e other kitchen. ah mui aunty will be quiet. hahah. even though she is funny at times. let's hope yoyo come to my kitchen n chat with us. haha. sat is my off day! my sis birthday! haha. can relax!! WOOT!

I've done something terrible and i feel so guilty. I think e guilt is going to stay there for sme time. Let's hope things will turn out fine soon.




Well theres work tml! n i look forward to it! Tt is to go chat with the aunties. haha. Hope there won't be clashes with e chef tml. I might jus take e knife n stab him. haha.

ANNOUNCEMENT: KITCHEN POLITICS! BEWARE OF EVIL CHEF AND FLYING KNIFES!




There is a group of angry kitchen assistants and service crew that is very unhappy with e uncivilised and bossy chef. However, sad to say, he still has a supporter.




Supporter:



Ah-man aunty




Protestors:



Yoyo



Xiu Ju aunty



Sijie



Service crew




We shall all unite together and plot against the scheming chef. He who does nothing but boss around and attack innocent kitchen assistants, waiter and waitress, dishwasher. We must stand up for ourselves!




Well, looking at another perspective, since we are closing soon we shall let him enjoy being e king for a while before he got transfered and get torture by pple from other outlets. haha.




Anyway aunty pualine is leaving! sad. she is a nice and kind lady. Hope there might be a miracle n she might not need to leave! haha.




Tml work again! Hope i don even see e stupid chef.

Work is definitely getting better! e barrier or gap tt was once there has start to narrow down or gradually closed. well this is definitely a gd sign. haha. had quite a fun time at work todsay. laughed alot. FINALLY! i'm not deprived of laughter! haha.

I'm here to blog again! haha. today is another off day for me. haha. so sian. no work = no $$.




anyway yest went out in e afternoon to watch movie. managed to catch curse of the golden flowers! haha. e movie is nice.




then went home catch a nap then went out again to have a farewell dinner for yat yan n jansen. haha. cos they going for NS tml. went to dinner at marche at suntec. was quite fun. haha.




after tt came home n watch tv till 3 plus. haha. ok got work tml. hope tml will be a better day!

YEAH! today is day off! happy n sad. happy because i can relax. haha.went jogging with frens then later go play pool. sad because no work no $$.




Anyway jus like my current job i have a love/hate relationship for it. I love being in e kitchen making sushi. N i love e aunties there! haha. they are very sweet most of e time. What i hate abt is e environment. i don feel welcome n i find it hard to fit in. this is so sad!




well, seems like e main prob is communication. hope this will be better after this month. Hopefully!

OK after so long, i'm finally here to blog! haha. N this is the first time i'm blogging for the new year! haha. Many things happened last year n now e year had ended n so shall all e unhappy stuff. E happy and fun times shall be locked in my memories n also be represented by the pictures taken.




FInally! i have also found a job! it is not an office job, but who cares. Wanted to look for one, but well, since i can't find any i looked for other jobs. haha. well i like this job too! cos i'll be working in e kitchen making sushi! YES! i'm working at sakae sushi, e sembawang outlet at the Sembawang shopping centre! haha. not sun plaza. n today will be e first day i worked! yipee! haha. well wish me gd luck for first day of work! haha.

Sometimes i jus envy or maybe get a little jealous at pple who are of my age to be allowed so much fun and they can go home in e wee hours n they won get scolded. Sometimes it does sounds fun. N i really wanna experience it myself. It's unfair tt i can't try to have such fun cos of the obligations and responsibilities i have to fulfill or to follow. They aren't mine in the first place. Just because of someone's selfishness i feel breathless, trapped and stuck. Sometimes i jus wan to break free n run away. Even if i get to enjoy for jus 1 day, i won mind. i really won't.

The logic in my brain is hard to comprehend. Even i don understand y i think in a certain way at times. Esp now. I know i dislike tt person, but i always want to know what is going on with her in her life n so i went to read her blog. Only to realised i wld flared up and get sooooo mad n upset at how she comment on certain things. It's weird isn't it? Or is this call: Updating yourself ant ur enemy? hahaha. Or maybe i jus wan to see if she suffers? haha. Maybe e more she suffer e happier i m? Ok then tt makes me a super saddist. haha. n maybe a potential criminal.

Internet is down from yest onwards. tried so many times then finally get to blogger. birthday was ok. it was nice. haha. but y always b4 my birthday got some disasters happening recently. 2 years back was tsunami. now is taiwan earthquake. tsk tsk. y like tt. haha. n i'm grounded! cos dad say i keep going out. haha. then i shall be a nice boy until new year! haha. n hopefully i get e job at woodlands! hope i get e call tml! ahha.

Woke up this morning n started to feel aches throughout my leg. n then i remembered tt i went training with shin jia n roy. haha. it was a funny, fun training. we walked, ran, jog ard e track e whole morn. haha. n my stamina sux! shld run more in future! must start to prepare n train more.




YEAH! today is x'mas eve!!! tml is x'mas!!! got x'mas meal!!! hahaha. let's hope there is turkey. YUMMY! n e day after x'mas is my bdae celebration! yeah go simei n eat!!! WOOT!! all e gd food here i come!!!! yummy!




let's hope all those fats i gain (hopefully) do not go to my tummy! haha.

I think i know the ans to certain questions i have in my mind. Maybe it is retribution.




Dad n sis got their phones today. Exactly e same phone. haha. n if only starhub would gave me e stdent plan! phhsssst. The salesguy say e HQ will reject cos i'm only a few days away from being 18. Y like tt!! i need tt 1000 sms! or i shld say additional 500 sms. haha. While e fat green pipe companies to do so, the smart n fast wrestling guy gave their customers such privelege with even more benefits! So maybe the fat green pipe might not be tt fat afterall. haha.




Dad is intending to get a 21 inch tv!! but well, it will be his. Maybe!..Maybe! When i got enough $$ i shall get a tv into my room as well! ahha. n comes along e beautiful Xbox. BUT! there are still monsters lurking in my hse, which might endanger the survival of my XBox. hmm. well...........maybe i shld get smth else? haha.




Saw the eye monster today. She got her hair cut! couldn't recognise her at first but when i saw those eyes! i felt shiver down my curvy spine. haha. ok shan't be mean. see retribution again.

ok. something jus popped right thro my mind! u guys can give me a cap as a gift too! haha. it will serve great purpose later on in my life. haha.




shall do a quick recap of what happened for e past 5 days.




Monday: Had an early celebration of my bdae!! went to seoul garden eat with e greatest frens on earth. haha.




Tuesday: Job hunting with seph at vivo. none wanna hire me cos i can only commit for a short period. haha. then celebrated jiawei's bdae at swensen.




Wed: Stayed at home n did my resume. send it to various companies. actually is those agency.




Thurs: stayed at home. watch tv use e com. send a few resume.




Fri: pray, eat, send resume.




Am i such a lousy worker? or i have a lousy worker's face? or i'm down with bad luck? y noone wans to hire me.........haha.

It has been some time ever since i've blogged. haha. was busy with a game. hehe. n job huntings. so now i'm taking a mini break from e games n job huntings. So far, sad to say no one wans to hire me. haha. cos i'm able to commit for a short period n they looking for abt 6 months n longer. so i was shortlisted. Kind of having mix feeling. a bit disappointed, sad yet somehow a bit relieved and happy. hahhaha. don worry i won give up n i will keep hunting for jobs! So seph!! don feel guilty ok!! jus treat me when u got ur pay! MUWHAHAHAHA. i'm evil.




Jobs n games aside, next wed is my birthday! pple who happen to see my blog pls kindly note tt my birthday is 27/12! SO I WANT MY GIFTS! hahaha. i'm thick-skin. Jus jk lar. i very nice one. haha. no gitfs also can, give me money lor. MWUAHHAHA. ok, jk only. haha.




Anyway, jus in case some kind, cute n lovely pple out there still wanna get me gifts (i don mind accepting), i shall write my list out! haha. u all still got 6 days to shop! haha.



1) more shirt! i wan one nike black dry-fit. size s/m



2) still more shirt! hahahah.



3) movie treats! treat me to a movie!



4) pants! cargo or 3/4 pants! waist size: 28!



5) money! give me ang bao also can! MUWHAHA. min $1. haha.



6) food treat! treat me to a sumptous meal! (i don mind choc fondue!)less than $20 can liao.



7) get me a job! if ur work place happen to need pple. MWUAHHA.



8) chocs! haha. i don mind getting chocs for birthday. haha.



9) an instrument tt measures ur heart rate when u jog. i can't remember wat is e name of tt small machine



10) deuter bag! those big big one! for backpacks! MWUHAHA. preferred colour: blue.




ok tt is all. haha. i very nice one. n i wish for a miracle to happen. ple let it happen. even though i know e chance of tt miracle happening is very slim. but anyway i still have my hopes for it! haha. lalala. i shall await for the miracle!

Everyone changes.




Sometimes it is impossible for anyone not to change. It seems tt in life, change is inevitable. To me, there are 3 main reasons why people change.




Firstly, influence by peers. When u are interacting with your friends everyday, some of their characters maybe actually be found in u. N some of your characters can also be found in them.




Secondly, due to the environment or surrounding. You change to fit in to the environment. To blend in with everyone.




Thirdly, to adapt to environment. You change cos u need to adapt in an unfamiliar environment.




So, pple change and there maybe more than these 3 reasons. So when someone change i think it takes alot of courage for another person to accept that change. If changing n be more positive in life, i think it is a good change and your fren instead of exclaiming and get upset over the change shld be happy for u.




Nevermind not accepting the change, to me, the worse a fren can go iis not to even allow u to change. If for the worse, maybe u shld try n stop e change for occuring. But if for the better, why not?




By doing tt you are very selfish. Not only being selfish u hinder the development of one. You trap the poor soul into the cage, the cage where shld have been opened.




So open your arms widely to changes you fren are having. Have an open-mind.

I'm back from chalet! haha. It jus ended yest! The chalet was fun. haha. but it could have been better if only it hadn't rain on e 2nd day!! we could have gone for night cycing!! haha. n we manage to clear all e wings!! 8kg of them!! lalalala. Faizal n xueying came to the chalet as well! haha. e more e merrier!




Met huifang, yifang, leeyen n peishi on e 2nd day! haha. they also booked e same dates as us. There were 2 more innovians as well. haha. but i could not remember their name now. HAHAHA. ok i'm bad. lalala.




lazy to update so much. haha. YEAH!! badminton tml!!! WOOT!!! n off to city hall after tt to collect e free gift!! YEAH!!!




oh, i think we shld have another gathering soon. haha. my class is fun! or maybe i shld say it is fun hanging ard with my class! haha.

It rained!!! haha. hope after today there will be tonnes n tonnes of sunshine for e next 3 days!! lala. SHINE SHINE SHINE!!!




yeah x'mas is coming n so is my birthday!!! LALALALALA. pple start getting my gifts ready!! i'll borrow santa's reindeer and sleigh but instead of giving gifts i'm coming to collect gifts!! MWUAHHAHA. ok lame. alala.




n today is such a random post! WOOT! e caged animal will be released!!! to enjoy a few days of freedom n locked up back into e cage. haha.




oh, when i grow old i hope to find an hdb apartment away from e centrals n stuff. Somewhere quiet n cosy. haha. but accessible enuf. lalalalalalala. e stars are singin!

YEAH!!!!! chalet is this coming mon!!!!!!!!!!!! so looking forward for it. haha. cos it is fun, fun and more fun!!! haha. n tonnes of fooooooooooooooddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!! wwwwwoooooooooooootttttttttt!!! haha.

me n aunties with feathers.



aunties, xiu yun n me! (again w/o specs..hmm..not nice)



look at me ears! they grow feathers! i can fly!



ok me! (someone say i handsome. MWUHAHAH)



my beloved aunties n me! (i tried taking photos w/o my specs, result = no gd)



arwinder, puden n me



aunties, me n hf. ( not a nice pic but heck)




OK due to blogger's own techinal problem (not mine), i am unable to upload other pics. I've tried serveral time but it was useless. So i shall post other pics at other time then! enjoy these few pics!

i'm angry by what happened earlier on. If u read e previous post b4 i delete it u shld sense my anger. But well since i've delete it i shall not harp on it. haha. shall post pics of my prom real soon! once i got all e photos from e various cameras. haha. lalalal. prom pics looks nice! WE'RE BETTER THAN LARD! HAHAHAHAHA. Well, she still can't amazed us. Too bad couldn't get to see e beehive head and e weird sense of dressing. Must be e help of her juniors. Gd for her at least she didn't get embarrassed. But still, she looks ugly. HAHA. okok. wait for my pics real soon!! lalalala.

MUWHAHAHAA. i think i tag at e wrong person's blog. so malu. haha. i'm so stupid. yeah. dumb. muwhahha.

lalala. jus bought my prom stuff today. so sad spent money again. I'm sooooo broke! lalalalala. i'm bored. yeah faezah is coming back. MUWHAHA. then can go interview soon! WOOT! lalala.

Someone pls saved me!!! NO! save us! from e clutches of e pig trotters.




It is starting to irritate e hell out of me when things are getting out of control. This is not only abt u. It concern others as well. I'm sicked of being asked what happened. So what is ur ugly motive? It is getting on my bloody nerves. Don make me go up to u and do something nasty to u. Or y don u jus announced it to e whole world so everyone can jus pity u.




I'm being tired of always taking e bad guy role. I think it is high time we switched roles, y don't u be e baddie and we'll be e goodies. YES! we shall jus have some exchange of roles u crazy-perverted-soaked-in-self-pity lump of lard/bitch/pig/hideous monster or watever undescribable creature. Just because of YOU! one bloody arsehole tt doesn't we need to suffer from all this shit. You are not e only victim. SO STOP SEEING YOURSELF AS E FREAKING LOSER VICTIM!




wait till e world sees ur hideous and horrifying mask, then they will understand why we choose to do what we have done. Don't see urself so holy and saint. U sinned! u bloody bitch! get tt into ur thick skull! imbecile! Maybe you will only why u are such a big loser when u've really lost everything, even your enemies.




I'll wait for tt day to arrive and b4 it does, old stories don't win sympathy. They just shows how old you really are and how stupid u are tt u are always stuck back in time. Don pretend to move on when u aren't. Such a 2 sided rat. you'll drown in ur own oil!




On a lighter note, prom is jus round e corner! so is chalet. N job interviews! lala. i can see e $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

YEAH! i got the contacts liao!!!!!!!!!!!! wooot!!! ok off to watch my anime. Hope they'll interest me abit more. haha.

OK! due to extreme boredom, i've decided to post a 2nd entry this time. Seriously nothing really excites me much now or rather at this moment when i'm typing this entry. Not even asking me out to eat chocolate fondue even if it is ur treat, cos i'm too full now. Plus, i've not even taken my dinner yet. ot even e fried curry chicken wings are tempting me.




I want to do something useful. In my defination of useful, i mean working and earning money. Currently waiting for a friend whose on a holi to come back so we can go for job interview and also waiting for my uncle's reply abt me being hired at starhub. So what i'm doind now is wait.




In this period of waiting, i want to be useful too. BUT! BUT! BUT! Not by helping my couin-in-law to look after her kids. They are hers, not mine. I think i've don enough for her for e past few years. Well, in my defination, by being useful will be lowering my output of money, and trying to find ways to increase my input. Unfortunately, in my case it is quite impossible. So maybe i'll help my mum do the horrible chores and cheer my sister on for her exams. Well, tt is rather useful isn't it? haha. ok maybe i'm not making any sense here. haha. Suddenly, i remembered wat i've said to anuty ng. So maybe it might prove useful here and help me to be useful in a certain way? ( i don't think there is any sense in this statement. ) I shall read more books. Maybe more fictional homicides stories and a little more about the animals. YEAH!! haha. Animals like lions, monkeys, tigers, peacocks and other animals. Let's hope it will be rather useful for my future job! WOOT!




I think i'm going a little off, but well who cares? i guess if u have read is thus far u might be thinking i'm insane. As a matter of fact, i think i m. Slightly insane with a touch of sadistic-ness in me. haha.




To deliver u from my nonsense i shall kindly stop here and return to my storybook.

P.S. U MAY WAN TO BORROW THIS BOOK CALL SLEEPING WITH THE FISHES. it is rather funny. E starting is rather dry and boring but there are some humour present at the later part of the beginning and pinches of it throughout the book. haha.

I'm feeling soooooo tired today! even though i've wasted my life at co. maybe tt is y i'm so restless.




met up with kat and pass her her belated gift. haha. had a fun time making it. and can see she likes e present alot. ahah.




ok tt is all. lazy to type so much. i think i'm becoming lazier. haha. or maybe i'm jus relaxing. haha.

MUWAHAHA. i know got pple wanna ask me out n play and meet up so i'll shall put up e dates tt i'm not free. haha. btw i'm looking for a job. so there might still be changes but so far the timetable u see below will be fixed.







November

28 - Chinese orchestra practice (till 12.30p.m)
29 - CO practice ( 2 - 6p.m )





December
1 - CO practice ( whole day )
2 - Out the whole day
5 - Prom
6 - CO performance
11-13 - Chalet





ok tt is all! haha. anyway i'm broke so i hope all e activity is cheap!!! haha.

YEAH! AFTER A TERRIBLE LONG MONTH OF BATTLING WITH THE A LEVELS, IT IS FINALLY OVER!! i'm officially freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee till next year april. haha.




Also after a long month of not blogging, i'm kind of lazy to update my blog as often. haha. no urge to anyway. haha.




ok tt is all for updating. to lazy to type. haha. feel quite disconnected with the com and blogging.




ok bye folks!

WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. ok today is one of e happiest day. Some may think i'm crazy but hey i really high now. haha.




I got my ns enlistment letter! yeah! yeah! yeah! i'm going to report to basic military training centre school 2 on 9th of april in e morn at 9am! haha. FINALLY! I'm definitely looking forward for it. then i don have to stay at home. haha. Just hope there don have weird pple. or pple tt are crazy. lalala.lalala. WOOTS!




Ok tt is all! haha. YEAH!!

I hereby declare that SIJIE is a SMART BOY! Because he is going to sit for his A levels and he is going to compete with pple from RJ, VJ n other top JC! Imagine pple of calibre like sijie can compete with smart pple in RJ n VJ, he must be really smart.




HAHA! ok bullshit. haha. N i've seen one of e most horrible pics i've ever seen. Nv have i reacted in such a way in my life. I almost puke out my dinner!! can u believe it!!!! n now after seeing e pics, i've no more appetite. I've also been scared till my soul just left my body! haha. scary, ugly, disgusting and definitely a huge TURN OFF. haha.




I"M SMART!!!!

The haze seems to be getting worse!! n so is my cough. Guess those irrtants present in the air is irritating my throat. bad bad haze.




Also due to my wild imagination i've told aunties tt e haze seem to make s'pore look like london. Well, not 100% like n some wld say it doesn't. Well i agree with u, haha, cos i'm only refering to the misty kinda look, not tt i've been to london but just my imagination. aha. also it gives u kind of a mystical cum magical feeling like u are in some enchanted woods. haha. ok enuf crap. gtg study.




I"M A MUGGER!! n oh..it's freaking scary, 3 to 4 weeks to 'A's wonder how i'm going to survive it. hai...

muwhaha!! i shall post a disgusting pic here. haha. no i shld say it is "super sexy!" haha.
"sexy" right! haha. nthn much this week. same old stuff. n oh e number of times me oversleeping has been increasing!! THIS IS BAD!! haha. shall get more alarm clocks.




Mr Goh spoke to me, faezah n siti today. Hai..i'm also disappointed with e mock result! Could have been better! Sheeessh. Even yat yan is improving so much, y can't i jus improve as much as him? haha. n now he wan us to get 70 for paper 2. stress stress stress!!!!




anyway today is mid-autumn festival. e sch kinda sux anyway. poor planning!! how can they have e promos at this time!! then e sch cannot celebrate mid-autumn festival unlike last year. anw this year's mid-autumn also nthn special. don have e mooncake i wanna eat. i shall jus fill my tummy with pomelo. haha. Juicy juicy fruit!




ok nthn much liao..but i'm wondering who is annon. anyway to annon, if u don like e content in my blog, u can jus leave. I nv force u to stay n read and no point commenting if u ain't putting ur name. how insincere.

ROAR!!!! I FUMING MAD AFTER READING SOMETHING!!! ROAR!!! ROAR!!!







How can u have e cheek to say tt! HALO! we don't manupilate and USED pple. In e first place there is nthn for me to make use of from u. haha. Thinking abt it now, it seems rather funny. haha. As if u have LOTS of things to let us make use of. bleah~~~~~~







It also doesn't seems to me tt u have a great personlity either. I know we don have fantastic personalities and characters but hey, u are no better. If not why wld u even want to befriend us in e first place. Don tell me crap such as u are being tricked or we had a fake mask or shit like tt.







Also, i had the upmost respect for those pple who u consult them for advice. But after what i saw they had to say, i'm utterly disappointed. They don't know us well and it was only A ONE SIDED VIEW! Come on, i still know have some skills i learned from ss. So what they heard are literally BIASED! it is a biased source.







AND! AND! AND! we are no complicated at all. U thing we so free, make ourself seem so complicated? U think we got nthn better to do? I think it is e fact tt u thinktoo much. We are not complicated at all. Or maybe u don't understand us at all. I dare say tt i don think i understand u well enough. There is nthn to hide. Don force us to see it in ur way when u don see ours in e first place. To be mean, u have nv grow up at all.







BLEAH! haha. i shall finish up my dinner n throw away all this anger and fustration! ahah. lala. i'm a happy person.







anyway i saw JINGZHI TODAY!!!! haha. and yenling saw me but i nv see her. so sad. nvm shall see her on her next shift! haha.

It seems to be a very tense week. Not becos we gt our results back and stuff, but something seemed to have happened this week before and now there is this unseen hostility and tension ard us. Everywhere. Hard to fathomed what it is and it is even harder to comprehend what has taken place. Cos no one knows except those involve and those who were being filled in by those who were involve.




Hope this tension and hostility ard us vanish or dissipate. Cos i'm feeling rather stressed in such situation. Cos i'm at a lost on how to behave or react and i can't simply ignore it cos i can feel its existence so strongly. And i got my reconfirmation from others. So what to do? hmm..i donoe.




Maybe we shall see how the current situation will evolved to when e new week begins.

I hate everything around me now. And in case u can't sense anything, this post is typed in the moment of impulse and anger. If u are not interested in hearing me nag, whine or complain then forget it. U can jus leave right now.




Sometimes i jus wish i have the cutage to tell my cousins how much i hate them and how much i long for them to return to their own home. U can say i'm selfish but i see no point in y i shld share things in my hse with that fucking family. They have the same things as us but y must they keep using our stuff? Creating so much troubles and irritation in our lives? Y must i lend them my writing pen for them to draw? Halo! tt is for me to do my work NOT for u to fucking draw on a peice of paper. Y must we always lend them our com when they have one com and one lappy? Y? U DONNOE HOW TO FUCKING USE YOUR OWN COM IZZIT?




I'm not in e least gratefuk for them for making breakfast for us on sun mornings. Sorry but i wish to sleep longer n i hope u won't come to my hse so early and disturb us. We nv ask u to come to our hse and cooked breakfast for us. Seriously, i don find it nice of u. If u wan breakfast u can jolly well stay at ur fucking hse and cook ur own fucking dinner. Becos when u cook hear, we are the one wasking the dishes not u. U only make a mess out of it.




Sometimes i also hate myself for being so soft-hearted towards to fugly kids. I jus simply hate everything abt them. Their smile, their voice, their presence. It jus totally disgust every bit of me. They can hate me jus as much but i don give a fucking care. N i hope they hate me too. So they won have to come over to my hse and see my fugly face. There were always so many times tt i tot of moving out to live on mu won after my NS. Maybe i'll stay in e hostel during my uni times. provided tt i manage ot get into one. I rather wash my clothes, do the dishes and work part time to pay for the rent then to go home and face them. N most prob, i'll jus find a flat and rent it and nv to return home maybe only on weekends. I know it is very selfish of me but hey i jus wan to have a live of my own. A live woithout them, jus me. Afterall i only get to livee once. Finding time tt belongs to me isn't a crime. I've always hopt to collect anime figurines, anime dvds and have my own room with all my favourtie posters. Buti nv get to acheive them. Y? cos even they have to take up part of my hse.Becos of them i can't get wat i always wanted and because of them my hse is always ina mess. There are soooo many times tt i wished i cld bring my frens to my hse. But my mum always say the hse is in a mess and you cannot bring ur frens. So now, because of them i feel so restricted so tied up. i don feel at home at all. i see nthn tt belongs to me sometimes at all. They nv know jus how much inconveneice they have brought upon us, how much quarells my mum n dad had becos of them, how many times me n my sis gets so fustrated with them as well. They nv understand and they nv know.




Sometimes i jus don uderstand y can they see our helplessness and fustartion towards them? Are they jus trying to act dumb? Pretend not to see anything and continue bring them here so tt we can help them look after them and they can jus slack. Maybe moving is the best plan afterall or until i got the courage to tell them how mcuh i detest them and tt they shld jus go home where they belong and not come and impose on others. You knw what? i'm still counting the numbers of years they have been staying here. To surprise everyone, it is the 9th year..going to 10 soon. I have nv had my own home or family for 9 years. TT is pathehic n tt is what is driving me crazy.

ok i've done a mean thing today.



Very mean. serious. haha. but well..i jus can't help myself.




Alright i admit the fact tt i'm mean, but neither do u have to get so emotional over it. If u really care abt it then i think it is alright to get emotional. But if u treat us like dirt, what's those emotional show or act u are putting up for? Wallow in self-pity? Make yourself e victim?



Alright but i must admit ur act did make me feel guilty. But not towards you, but to others who have to suffer in my place.



N it does make me pity u. Seriously pity. U get it? I PITY YOU! you don have to feel happy abt it. No point. Cos it jus degrade yourself. Wanna know why? Oh, but i must warn u first, like i've said earlier - I M MEAN. So if u wanna continue reading, pls do but don't go ard telling other wat a poor thing u are or tt u cry to sleep after reading this entry. If u are not prepared - SHOO! -



But in case u wanna know how i pity u, pls carry on reading.




I pity u in a way tt u are ALONE. YES ALONE. U have frens ard u, but u treat them like dirt too. so tt make u ALONE.




I pity u becos u try to have high expectations for others but they don't now n they don meet up to them n you get disappointed. sad. TT's stupid. becos u don't cherish for who they are but u want them to be what u wan. U nv get real frens tt way. U DON'T!




I pity u bcos pple have to act they don mind listening to your complaints and tt u make them suffer more than u do but u'll nv get it. U NV WILL.




And since i pity u so much, i shall be nice to you in a way tt is evil too. I will smile at you whenever i see u. Be prepared to received my smiles. U don have to return them. You jus have to see those curves on my lips.




Oh a peice of advice. Reflect upon ur actions, not others.

WOOT! Prelims is officially over! ok, it was over abt a day ago. haha.




After prelims went swimming!! YEAH SWIMMING! n it has beeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnn soooooooooooooooooooo loooooooooooooooooooooonnnnng since i swam. haha. n i got burnt! real bad at e face n my upper arms but not my chest and back. BOO HOO! wat an uneven burn. haha.




After tt went home n rest. Soon i bath again n left e hse n meet sock hwee n sephine to go to marina bay to celebrate harry's birthday. Half of the grp went first while me, sock n speh waited for puden and shin jia. Then after they arrived we went to meet e rest at zhen fa. Ate quite a bit. After eating went to arcade to play. haha. i only spent 50cents! ahah. n seph had to treat me in order to make me play. haha. i'm rather evil n stingy when it comes to playing in e arcade. ahah. THX SEPH! if u are reading this. hha. after tt went home with e rest while shin jia, harry n yat yan stayed at e arcade. Upon reaching e station, me sock n speh went down to the mrt station while puden n gang went to the toilet. After a while we heard BOOM BOOM sound. then we realised it was fireworks!! so puden and gang n e 3 of us climbed up e slope and watched e fireworks. IT WAS BEAUTIFUl! all e colours!




After tt went home.







Ok n tt was yest. Today met up with eunice for breakfast! YES! she has came back from her europe trip. haha. had breakfast at the prata place near hans. IT IS GOOD! so long since we ate prata there. ahha. cheap too:) and air-conditioned! After tt went to upper thomson road to walk walk. Went to the foodcourt to see e pics eunice took and had calbury chocs!! n some belgium chocs too! YUMMY! after finish watching e photos went to ntuc to get some water n i was eating e chocs while walking. THEY SUPERB!! so long since i've eaten nice chocs! then went to northpoint. While waiting for aunty ng's sis to meet her, we went to arcade and play. haha. SO EX!tsk tsk tsk. DAYLIGHT ROBBERY! haha. but in e end i still play. haha. after tt went to take neoprint! ahha. n then we went separate ways.haha. N oh! eunice gave me e WHOLE BOX OF CHOCS!! CAlBURY CHOCS!! YES!! WHOLE BOX!!! YIPPEEEEEEEEEE!! haha.




n so, i'm drown into the pool of yummy chocs and flooded by endorphins released by the hypothalamus. haha. YEAH! THEY NICE!!

FINALLY! FINALLY! this week has passed.




It has been a super long week. brain draining and also a week tt kind of demoralize me.




First was bio paper. i feel tt it was ok. But mr azahar feedback tt our paper 2 so far no on pass. This is crazy. Then tues was maths n chem. Maths..hopefully can get anough to pass. Chem..i gues may may is going to shout at us again. Wed was bio paper 1. quite ok. thurs was chem paper 2. also gone case. SOOOO many question so little time. may may sure volcano erupt. or go monkey crazy. n today was maths paper 2. i think i'm pretty stupid. all of a sudden i cant do them.




hai..n now they say gp low passing rate. they might as well jus shoot me dead. sometimes i wonder what i'm doing too.




i'm so tired. tired of studying. tired of having exams. tired of going to sch and hear my teacher nag. tired of failing. i jus wan to sleep forever.

Most kids nowadays are rather loud. N i really mean LOUD. i was on a bus today going back home after studying with my fren and there was this bunch of students talking so loudly! Like as if their frens were all deaf or there were at the coffeeshop. At least my frens ain't tt loud. I've been witnessing such scenes for countless times. Usually these kids would be sitted at the back of the bus and i would usually aviod sitting at the back. Partly because they are pretty loud and partly because they're in a big grp and it is quite intimidating. haha. Laugh at me and call me coward but hey it's true. Sometimes they stink too. Literally.




N do i look very scary? There was this lady that actually came out of the lift when i pressed the button before the door closes. N when i enter the lift she quickly drag the kid out. What is her problem? i know i'm ugly but not ugly to the scary part. TT is so mean of her and i was so stupid not to check if she pressed the six level button. In the end she did and i stupidly jus walk out of the lift and found myself in a different env. haha. n when i walk back to the lift got 2 couples came down from e staircase and i think they were laughing at me. SO MALU! in the end i jus climbed up the stairs. EEEE. what a day. SHEEESSSHH. haha.




PRATA TML! WOOT! YES!! haha.

Received a shocking sms today from one of my frens. She told me e croc hunter-Steve Irwin has passed away while he was shooting a documentary film. He was killed by a stingray where its barb peirced through the the croc hunter's chest and into his heart. Well, a quite a piece of sad news cos i used to watch his croc hunter show n i like him. Funny and enthusiastic in what he do. It was also his passion for nature and attracted me to watch the show. Poor fellow.




Anyway today went out to study. It was quite productive i guess. haha. So little time so many things to study!! shall make better use of my time now. ok i shld update till here! haha. off to bath and study!! STUDY STUDY STUDY!! n yeah tml going out to study again!!! how i love studying outside!! it's rather productive! haha. ok bye guys!

Alright, i went blog hopping for awhile jus now and soon the green little monster call jealousy paid me a little visit. ahha. itchy itchy hands of mine. Well, i was surfing e blog of my sjab frens and reading those entries they wrote the duties they have n their relationship with their cadets kinda make me jealous.




Even though it has been like 2 to 3 years since my corps close down i still misses sjab. Even though how much i told pple i hate sjab, i actually misses it. What i really hate was the management at e headquarters and what i missed is the fun i had with my cadets, seniors and me fellow squad mates while doing duties, camps, parades or training. All those that i'll nv go thro again. No more first aid com, no more Jnco, snco and training camps, public duties. No more parades, commands to shout or drills to practise. No more medical tools to play with, to learn its usage. No more bandage to play with, no more partner to tie your bandage on. No more kisses with the dummies and molesting cases of the dummies as well. one last thing. No more forms to fill in.




Well, listing all these things made me sad. cos it is really NO MORE. Wonder if it'll appear again and even if it does it belongs to us (my ex corps pple) and not joining other sch. Because e feeling will nv be e same.




Suddenly, i miss wearing my uniform and wonder if my decision of not going to OTC under another corps was a mistake or not. hai..but all these are already the past. time to move on time to move on. how i hate this nostalgic feeling. it can be so funny at time when u think back. But now it is e sad part.




ok i shld go back n soaked myself into the wonderful world of chemistry.